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♥Saturday, June 28, 2008

Have you ever been cheated?

Yes.....I have ever been cheated by this indonesian lady.....my nenek actually lokk at the few things suddenly when I paid for her barang-barang she said that the ten dollar note was cut....I was shocked for second and thought to myself....like why would I want to cut a ten dollar note.....it is against the law......and think slowly back before I gave her the ten dollar note....my ten dollar was not cut or anything........I was so pissed of....still so pissed off.....hey it takes me weeks just to save that amount of me......

Hey don`t worry I believe in Karma....if you do something bad to a person,you are affected but if you do good things to people,people might do good things to you.....so all I have to do is bersabar.....patience is key to everything......I think I learnt that from Prince of Tennis.....I must save the best thing first......before using it.....So you know I can`t swear because I try not to....but instead of that I want to get alot of blessings......

To me I save the best at the last.....hehehe....that`s my way of doing things....

LOVE,
Zarifah

[3:51 PM]

Missing you all day long

Wonderful Days?

Have you ever thought that you have at least one time of wonderful days?
I have quite a lot of wonderful days.......most of my wonderful days are memories that would always be treasured......

With friends.....the most wonderful days....was with my primary school friends and still with Nurul Nazihah......hehehe......My primary school friends and I would always have a water fight during the holidays when we come back to school for angklung practice and sometimes hanging out together at Eastpoint or Tampines Mall......with Nurul was going out to watch movies and taking pictures at Tampines Mall.......

My parents or family......quite alot of them.....don`t know which one to decide.....hehehe.......i think when every weekends hanging out together as a family.....with doing some boring housework and etc.......and sometimes going out to catch a movie or something......

These are some of my wonderful days....i have ever experienced how bout the worst days.......

The worst case was fighting with the picnic girls(small,medium and large)....hehehe.....I still hate them till today because there was once when I was playing soccer with my neighbours(all guys and about 2 girls).....they started throwing things from their window and revenge...hehehe make alot of weird noise......there used to be a boys clan and a girls clan.....hahaha....first I joined the girls clan....and then betrayed them by giving out information to the boys clan.....Still hate the girls in my condominium except for the two girls.........We also had weapons to ambush them okay....so don`t play play.......was totally fun as they were afraid to go near us.....

HATE THE PICNIC GIRLS>>>>TOTALLY HATE THEM>>>>GOODBYE....

LOVE,
Zarifah

[10:47 PM]

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I have a kaypo brother whose name is Akmal Zakwan........hehehe.....no lar today not that topic......another song dedication.....this is really my topic for today......you know how music tells your feeling and all that......I`m still finding the song dedicates friendship and happiness and peace and whatsoever.,......hey about something different.....

hey how bout No one from Alicia Keys.....to me this song dedicates love and care for each other......
"No One"

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cause
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cause
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel

I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try try to divide something so real
So till the end of time
I'm telling you there ain't no one

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

so this okay for a long term friendship.....I believe the lyrics says that without anything or friends,you would not be a no one....

next a malay song......sorry lar.....

Kalis Rindu

Desiran daun dihembus angin
Tin kosong dan tong golek ke kaki
Membelah sunyiku..

Menonton bayang wajahmu di minda
Kala ku sendirian terpisah jauh
Beerti tanpamu

(Bridge)
Babak penantian
Satu ujian
Sekuat mana cinta[ Kalis Rindu Lirik on http://top10mp3download.blogspot.com ]
(Korus)Ku tak mungkin
Kalis rindu
Kalis pilu
Bila kau tiada bersamaku
Pendam rindu
Pendam pilu
Hingga kau menjelma ah au…

Berdiri ditingkap merenung ke luar
Lihat kekasih ku yang basah berjalan dalam hujan
Beserta senyuman
Lama ku nantikan

(Ulang bridge & korus)

Sekian detikan waktu berlalu
Di alam berkasih
Menjadi rakaman yang berharga
Tak terharga yang berharga

I dedicate this song too because it means friendship....and to the ones that I miss the most.......Although all my songs are all love songs...they can be bubbly,sad and sometimes full of anger.......

LOVE,
Zarifah

[7:47 PM]

Missing you all day long

What`s happening to this strange world?

In my condominium....you would not believe how hurt are the cats......they are really abuse of what i was heard off.....my neighbour cat was really abused.....he was really mad at the managment and the managment commitee......hey how bout dogs? I ever saw a dog pooped and the owner never throw it away....and in my defence,my three cats are so called litter trained.....so you could not blame them.....hey have I ever complained that the neighbour`s dog has gone into our house for so many times? no right but why are these human being doing such cruel things......

Hey anyone wants to abuse my cats must go through me.....I don`t care how loud I`m going to shout out but I would really do that and no one can stop me.....because hey they do that why can`t I......to me those type of people are cowards.....true cowards......hey abusing is a crime okay.......no one can`t a buse my cats understand these are how they look like...

This Squicky.....

this is Queen

mEET holly

LOVE,
Zarifah

[5:38 PM]

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My world is black and white.....

To me this is not emo.....this how i feel towards everyone even my family......with this strong feeling some people don`t even get me....I know i`m always the sad one.....the quite one and whatsoever......this feeling is so strong that only god understands how I feel......to me this feeling tells me that kiamat sudah dekat(the world is dying)....to save Earth is quite thin......Fuels is price is up.....only if we can turn back the time then we already now what is happening.......

There is also no peace around....everyone having war,chaos.....I can`t predict what is going to happen in the future but my senses do feel that something is wrong.....look if you don`t believe me why are this natural disaster happening.....the only solution I could help out is to save this world like how others are doing and pray hard....not swearing.....i have promised not to swear....because it`s a sin.....

have you heard the song love is or saltwater...there it is our condition of our earth...bye....

LOVE,
Zarifah

[1:39 PM]

Missing you all day long

I want to dedicate another songs to all my peers and senpais(seniour in japanese)........because I believe this song shows laughter and care......And the most funniest thing I heard in my life....

The other night dear, as I lay sleeping
I dreamed
I held you in my arms
But when I awoke, dear,
I was mistaken

So I hung my head and I cried.
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

I'll always love you and make you happy,
If you will only say the same.
But if you leave me and love another,
You'll regret it all some day:

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away
You told me once, dear, you really loved me
And no one else could come between.

But not you've left me and love another;
You have shattered all of my dreams:
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

In all my dreams, dear, you seem to leave me
When I awake my poor heart pains.
So when you come back and make me happy
I'll forgive you dear, I'll take all the blame.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much
I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

The funniest thing I ever heard it was whe abang Firdaus told me last time whenever they go into the music room....they would always sing song and he said that his classmates would feel sick of the song and his teacher....hehehe......and I do remember there was once Rafiqah and I sang that song to irritate one of my classmates,Irfan.....hehehe....we never give up....hehehe......

It really gives me memories.....

LOVE,
Zarifah

[9:44 AM]

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Hmmm...i`m still abit weak....it`s was the first day of school and there was cca or worst go home at 6.30 pm....but to bad I can`t attend for cca just for this week by doctors order.......Let me tell you how I experience yesterday.....

hai....okay....yesterday I woke up about 5.30 and got ready to school....my bags were pack by then......hehehe.....than I went down for breakfast........of course everyone has monday blues for the first day of school........I was feeling nervous as you can see....my hair was short and I felt very weird........hahaha......there were like a few lost in the school......hehehe......new teachers were there too....oh yes there was like a new caffe in the school.....hmmm....i also had a new history and malay teacher.....for my history teacher.....her name was Ms. Eunice Ong......haha the funny thing was my friend Eunice had the same name as her.....after thatwe had some group discusion.....hmm....

later that was angklung......i felt that pain of salah bantal.....it still hurts...hmm later we went back about 6.30...i reached home about 7.00 and my blood was up....I wanted to scream....I guess I really do need anger managment....i`m angry at a lot of things but I don`t know how to say it....
By then around 9.30 i had a fever oh ready...

LOVE,
Zarifah

[6:25 PM]

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I`m a girl who is always tired of school....like who does not.....everyone experience that way....Buut the only week of the day I hate is Monday....It`s the starting of the school week....huh.....I always have cca after that like angklung band.....Angklung band usually starts at 3....and can end as late at 6.30.....

My grandfather keeps on telling me that I have a short life in primary school to secondary school.....for secondary school we usually would spent 4-5 years but in primary school we woud have to spent at least 6 years.....hmmm...I guess I have to listen to the elderly....hmmm....only left 20 weeks of school....i believe 20 weeks is quite short.....especially for me.....I have to catch up like the others and aim for express......

I can`t just slack around and do nothing about it.....need to improve in alot things such like,maths,english,malay,science,history and geogaphy.......I need to speak up alot....okay not that talkative but alot...scarad seh........nevermind 20 more weeks Zarifah,you can do it.....

LOVE,
Zarifah

[3:41 PM]

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Cutting my hair short.....

Okay I wanted to cry at first but at least I face it....after spending 1 hour and 1/2 at the saloon.....how dare my brothers called Miss Swan....Hahaha.....to know guys.....they are actually jealous.....on the road they could be so ego....like they on the road......wrong.....my aunt told me that information.....

Okay my mum,my aunt and me went to lucky plaza......woah....we had hard looking for baju raya...so we changed the colour again from purple to green.....mmmm.....spent a lot of time at one of teh shop then after that I got my hair done.......hey that`s the time I spent really a long time there.....hey when I was there my mum and my aunt went to had their lunch without me....okay.....

mmm...after that we went to isetan......mmm....hey that place has lots of japanese items....what I meant is the electronical appliances.....

tangs.......has mostly korean things and some japanese....hey this is where we went okay....it was like a ladies marathon but in a different way......lastly went to paragon....hmmm.....woah you don`t believe how expensive are things now......one shirt may cost at least $ 87 .......hey you know for me I`m a cheap sake person but my mum keeps on buying the branded stuff....Thank you.....I`m also an appreciative kind of person.....

Hey an then we went to buy mutabak to go....huh....we reach home around 6 pm......really a woman marathon....now so tired....

bye....

LOVE,
Zarifah

[9:08 PM]

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To me expressing feelings towards writing is a very good way of saying things.....

My feelings are like a piece of songs.....as when i`m feeling sad....ther is this song called Love is Blue...here is the lyrics...

Blue, blue, my world is blue
Blue is my world since
I'm without you

Grey, grey, my life is grey
Cold is my heart since you went away

Red, red, my eyes are red
Cryin for you alone in my bed

Green, green, my jealous heart
I doubted you and now we're apart

When we met how the bright sun shone
Then love died, now the rainbow is gone

Black, black, the nights
I've known
Longing for you so lost and alone
Gone, gone, the love we knew
Blue is my world since I'm without you

Here I dedicate this songs to a few of my peers......hmm....now as you can see...today after I went o brain gym.....my weakness is fear.....I have fear alot of things up till now.....like an example going to school.....stressed....

But this brain gym can unwired my feeling to a happy and cheerful girl.....hehehe.....No one are supposed to rush me.....if people rush me I get to tied up......and if htat happens my battery suddenly goes dead....and my mind froze.....

here this is what i`m talking about today...

LOVE,
Zarifah

[9:32 PM]

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What`s my purpose of my Life.....

Okay yesterday my Teens aLIVE holiday workshop.......ended......as life goes on...everyone should have a purpose of what are they going to do during the future......after we learnt.....

My goal and my purpose.....hmm what`s my goal...to aim for the thing that I dream off......what`s my purpose to be a good muslim or be a good daughter....yupe that`s a difference between goals and purpose....you can see that a purpose is fixed but the goal is always flexible change to it.......

now what is acutally my goal.....Hmmm.....that`s more important....I can`t predict what I want for the future but I can help myself in the future.....

next time I would tell more about this....

LOVE,
Zarifah

[2:23 PM]

Missing you all day long

I have three divas altogether.....Guess what are their names? Holly,Queen and Squicky.......hehehe these three cheecky cats always get on my nerves.......looking after three cats is a pain in the neck.....hey just imagine my mum looking after three children are aso pain in the neck....oppps I admit it......hehehe.....you would not believe what they do everyday......

I`m so tired because everyday they fight and quarrel and chase each other......hai....I wish there is such a thing as a cat sitter......hmm...so tired leh........everyday hearing their hisses........

Holly a real diva....the most real queen of the house....never gives up fighting with Squicky and Queen.....the oldest among the three of them.......first entered the 2003........she thinks that everything that she has is hers........when we got her she showed her intelligenace to my mum.....she would bit my mum`s hand while she carried her out of the cage.....her care taker was afraid of her.....that`s why we adopted her.......

Queen.....the god sister of Squicky.....now become neutral with her......she is so manja everyday...like mary had a little lamb....she would folllow me everywhere.....sometimes when i`m going to leave the house it would be the hardest thing.......hahaha...these ragdoll cat would sometimes act "duh"......hehehe...not to be rude.......really arh....don`t believe then nevermind leh.......

Squicky.....the naughtiest and smatest and adventurous persian cat....I ever met.....she was the owner of an actress Rima Melati Adams...so does Queen........she would go out early in the morning and goes back as late as midnight....overall a very good and reliable cat......i think so .......holly and Squicky would always get into a fight.....

hmmm...that`s all i could say.....haha...ooooo..........Squicky is hetting to learnt howto get on the bed.....got to go...bye.....

LOVE,
Zarifah

[12:01 AM]

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Is a family important?
Let me give you an answer to that question......It is a yes for that question.........I would give an explaination to do that answer.....

Your Mum,she is the one who strugged by carrying and giving birth to you......She is also the one who raise us up......she struggled the whole 7-9 months carrying us and 1 month to forever to raise us up.......she is also one of the suppotive ones in your family.....so if you are going to abuse her.....don`t you think that you are going to waste her effort? Prophet s.a.w says that the one that you must love most is your mother,mother,mother and then your father.........

How about your father what was his part?

His part was making babies with you mum.....he is also the one that looks for money and support the family.....he takes a long effort just to find an amount just to feed and educate us......if just imagine that your father spank and scold you....it is just not hat he loves you but he wants us to be better in the future......

To me now kids who experincing teenage life are having a hard time to spent with their family......the results really shows.....they are having a problem to choose to spent with peers compared to their family......my grandfather says that a sunday is a day that you are always the day you are suppose to spent with your family compared to your peers......everytime I go out on a sunday the result shown when for example I talk to my old peers they told me that they spent a few times spending with their family.......

So what did Joey(f.r.i.e.n.d.s) said to Mike before Pheobe got married?

The most important think is a family......A family is the most thing that is really really important in this world....nothing is perfect than a family.....

(still continuing)......You are going to be a family.....She is going to be a family and everyone is going to have a family......

Hey that`s all I got to say...okays

Ifah(sorry my nickname)

LOVE,
Zarifah

[11:36 PM]

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Okay as for today about a song.....very special one it`s can`t smile without you.......as my descusion i would like to talk about that song.....I know that it`s old piece but I think it`s worth a friendship to all my old peers and new peers.....To me although that song is very budget....it brings friendship together.....hmmm.....see how the song goes okay....

To me everytime i hear that song it reminds me of a brand new day......Promise I only going to watch it in youtube....not going to download it....even if I do it....I have to pay back something in return.....mmmm.....okay only this time i am going to say to myself that i`m weird okay...I am a mix of a person....I would also promise that I would not seek on revnge only if i have to......here are lyrics.....

You know I Can't Smile Without You,
I Can't Smile Without You,
I can't laugh and I can't sing,
I'm findin' it hard to do anything.
You see, I feel sad when you're sad,
I feel glad when you're glad,
If You only knew what I'm go ing through,
I just Can't Smile Without You.
You came along just like a song and brightened my day,
Who'd've believe that you were part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away.
And now you know
I Can't Smile WIthout You,
I Can't Smile Without You,
I can't laugh and I can't sing,
I'm finding it hard to do anything.
You see, I feel sad when you're sad,
I feel glad when you're glad, If you only knew what
I"m going through, I just can't smile.
Now some people sa y happiness takes so very long to find.
Well I'm finding it hard leaving your love behind me.
And you see,
I Can't Smile Without You, I Can't Smile Without You,
I can't laugh and I can't sing,
I'm findin' it hard to do anything.
Y ou see, I feel sad when you're sad,
I feel glad when you're glad,
If You only knew what
I'm going through,
I just Can't Smile Without You

I would go my next topic coon okay....

LOVE,
Zarifah

[7:41 PM]

Missing you all day long

Today my topic woud be time pass by really fast.....next week we would go back to school and it would be semester 2 term 3........huh.......i wish that there would be a real actual time machine that could zap us back into the past.....as time pass,i don`t get any older and the earth is really dying....

I wish the Earth would be back as it`s original thing not having an ozone layer somewhere around it......look at china that`s the sign of kiamat sudah dekat......look at the taufun,earthquakes and tsunami and etc. that is happening around us.......Everyday is a different day......and it is a different me......sometimes when i go to school i always felt the negative side of me and it kept on saying.....i`m weak compared to the others and don`t go to school,you`re so not confident enough....like when i reached in school things total changed.......

I feel that I could changed everything soon........mmm.....lets not talk about that topic how bout prince of tennis very fun to watch.....hey they have songs as well....but for all this while I have not heard Mizuki from St Rudolp singing......Syuusuke Fuji songs.....wow.....i love it especially this songs that you are tunning to.......I love Shishido Ryou.......whewit........he is totally cool until I have to download one of his songs quitely......hehehe......I promise I would not do it again.....after awhile it becomes like an addiction.....I know that these website must ask for permision before downloading......

Aozu.....Contains Syuusuke Fuji,Ryoma Echizen,Tezuka Kunitmsu and Oishi Genchiro(correct?)....Meganes contains Oshitari,Tezuka and Inui......Cap to Bin contains of Momoshiro,Kawamura,Kaidoh,Kikumaru and Inui.....let me tell you the song that I recomand......from Syuusuke Fuji is Hitomi Koroko Mama......from Shishido Ryou it`s Brand New Story......From Aozu...it must be freedom and the seigaku regulars must be departures......Kikumaru....is I~jian.........Oshitari.....valentine kiss.......whaaa....i love especially when Shishido,Atobe,Oshitari,Sanada,Oishi and Kai singing it.....it makes me.....sigh.......

Movies from Prince of tennis...i recomand Atobe gift and The First Game:The Two Samurai.......wait a minute......I think thats all....omg.....yar yar yar.......i`m a prince of tennis nerd or should I say that i`m a prince of tennis freak......okay since i can`t talk about it mada mada dane....or don`t let your guard down.........or donnnnnn.........hoi hoi .....haha.....a few legend used.....mmm...i hope that one day I could go to Japan and buy things there.....

signing off

LOVE,
Zarifah

[8:13 PM]

Missing you all day long

Huh?

I was so tired and moody about yesterday`s trip to sentosa.....everyone was whining even the grandparents.......hey you would not believe it how long was the trip and how embarassing it was........Atok Sukri,Nek Bedah,Nadiah,Nazurah,Iman,Nadra,Bik Siti,Akmal and me had to follow to sentosa.......

First,we went on a luge that was the fun part....a luge it looks like a mini bicycle-car that you have to control it.......it has only one gear to use.......if you make faster you have to release a few pressure and if you want to make it slower you have to put a lot of pressure onto it......

Next,we went to the underwater world.....woah......you must realize how expensive the tickets were child was $12.90.....adult was $15.90......it was so expensive leh.......there was only like a few exhabition to see compared to the underwater world in perth....first there was the feedinding of sting ray and the touch of the sea creatures......next there was the left fossil water creatures.....crabs and the angel fish.....wah.....the angel fish was so small that magnifing glass was needed and the temperature they lived in was at least 2 degrees and below.......then we went to the ocean life creatures followed by the jellyfish,seahorses and duyung.......After that we went to feed the stingray.....each cup was about $3.00 each......the stingray was so manja leh.....with no food in the hand,they still allow us to touch them......

Lastly we went to Siloso beach.....It was so hot that we had to eat under a tree.......woah everyone was looking at us.....that was when it was the most embarassing part.....you would not believe it...actually siloso beacha re meant for beah volley ballers.....and I think sun taners........after eating.....Akmal felt sick and we had to leave quickly to find the merlion.....

Nenek was like so angry and kept on asking where is it.....I was like Hello.......He can`t remember the whole thing....and after that impatient nenek made Akmal cried.....hey for me all I have to do is to sms mama that Akmal was crying.....

When we reached at Bik Anna`s house.....nenek scolded him again now we promise her that we would not follow okay....that was at least her deal......Akmal wanted to go home.....but we had to wait until the next day.....

When mama called again.......we were still in the car and was afraid that nenek would scold Akmal so when we reached Atok`s house we went straight to the toilet to call mama so that we would be able to have a chance to tell mama what happened.....

So that how`s my day was.....

LOVE,
Zarifah

[6:34 AM]

Missing you all day long

SparkyBloom: The Red Party again

LOVE,
Zarifah

[7:47 PM]

Missing you all day long

Why? Why? Why?

hmmm....why does my mum is a fan of Tezuka Kunitmsu? He is the animation series from Prince of Tennis lar.........of course.......but i still wonder why......He is like the most weirdest among the seigaku tennis club......he does not smile all the time and it would cost like a million dollar just to see him smile........my favourite is Syuusuke Fuji and Eiji Kikumaru from the seigaku tennis club from Hyotei is Shishido Ryou.....Shishido is described as a crancky boy and a peson who never gives up.....he is a partner of Otoori Chotaro.....both are known as the golden pair of Hyotei acadamic and their most awesome pair up done was mirage......Syuusuke Fuji is a friendly and a boy that always keeps on smiling.....He is a best friend of Tezuka Kunitmsu.....He is known as the genious as he has never lost any game before......His style of playing comes from the wind like for an example,Brown Bear Falling,The Swallowing Return,The white whale.......Eiji Kikumaru is an acrobatic player.....he does acrobatic tennis.....Eiji and Oishi are known of the golden pair of Seigaku Tennis Club......Eiji`s favourite moved is Kikumaru Beam.....

Favourite player from Yambuki is Sengoku.....He is a boxer in the games as he follows the style of how does the boxerdoes three minutes per a game......he will become mild when he sees beautifu girls around him.......Mizuki is my favourite player from St. Rudolp......He has a big mouth......he is also a manager of this tennis cub.....he is describe as a sly manager as he tricks every good players....

Okay these are my favourite players from each tennis club but there is more that I want to mention like Kirhara,Kamio,Sanada and many more....

signing off

LOVE,
Zarifah

[11:23 AM]

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Brain Gym.....

As for today something interesting happen.......as we were on our way to Chinatown,we were lost like in another dimansion......hehehe....that happens like all the times.....Trying to find Smith Road was quite difficult as we lost our way......Mama,Bik Sulastri,Amiee and I was trying to find 24 Smith Street.....Hey that is where our appointment is......Soon after 30 mins. of asking for directions,we made ou way there......

When we reached the brain gym centre......my mum and I had to enter a lady`s office,sorry forgotten her name leh.......she told us the way we think and how our body tells our feelings.....the negative and positive of it...........as for me, i was lack of confident.......She did teaches me alot of things of how to over-come my confidence.....she also told me that water functions the brain you know.....because before that she knows my mind was lack of water.....after I drank abit of water the bains started to function......she also helps by telling my fear of what age I was........My age of fear was when I was 3 years old......what exactly happen leh? My little brother was borned,I had not attention,my great-grandmother passed away and I moved house.........As I was calming myselfdown by doing some of the excersice she taught,my heat sank with sadness remembering those moments......I could not bear to cry but instead of that the whole body was really crying.......

Now i have to think back what was my greatest fear during that time.......
I would tell you more about it.....until i have found what happened....

LOVE,
Zarifah

[10:58 PM]

Missing you all day long

Today I have just encountered the most exhausting 1 day trip.....It was to Johor Baharu,Malaysia......The person that went were Nek Yam,Nek Dah,Nek Uji,Cik Jamila,one of Nek Uji`s daughter,mama,Akmal and me.........huh can`t you believe how many grandma(s) who wanted to go a placce to another place......

First we went to one of the shopping mall....sory i can`t remember the name leh......hmmm......we spent like an hou thee walking around while Nek Yam take money out......hey the problem is why is there no milkshake like there was before in Mac Donald`s......quite a bad luck for us because it is more cheaper than the one in Singapore......You would not believe how much traffic jam there was......Then we went to Terbau City........it looks more like Vivo City but more bigger......When we reached there we went to eat Sushi King.....wah so hard to be patient leh.....whenever the sushi that we want are on the other aisle we have to wait untli we realise that the other aisle would go another route.....

I was then so tired an slept less than 40 mins. .....You would not believe that it was the first time I found nothing interesting in Terbau City.....When there is a sale, the price of the somerset bay clothings ae much cheaper than finding it on-line.......especially the dress,the blouse and the skirts.....We went to this antique shop woh......this is like every woman `s drea but i do not bother to go in because was too tired ahhh..........you would not believe how hot was today......My mum spent more than $400....it`s like more than iwannagohome......

Then lastly we went to Angsana......where my mum could find our baju kurong colour....so this year it would be in purple.......hey don`t be silly and say that it is an international gay colour.....hey who knows........maybe black also a internationaal gay coour too.....we spent almost 1 and a 1/2 hour ther and went back home.....so today is the most tiring day.........

LOVE,
Zarifah

[9:10 PM]

Missing you all day long

Today I have just came a cross a bunch of wild aunties......you would not believe it but very kecoh.......my mum was one of them......like who is not so crazy of the osmonds........hmmm.......the ladies were aged like from 40-45 years old......I was like laughing at them.....especially when they were talking about Jay,Marie,Donny and Jimmy Osmond......

So where I was that time.....oh I was the at the Singapore Press........ohh yar there were like 6 aunties altogether including my mum.....I was inteviewed and I told the journlist that I had never seen my mum acting like some kind of teenage girl watching The Click Five........especially when Kyle Patrick....okay i would not go on to that........after the inteview there was this photo shot....hmm....you would not believe how was the envionment like that....

It was so hard for them to smile so they had to sing the same songs over and over again.....the aunties were really those kind of fanatic.....until the photographer had to ask me why are they singing the same song over and over again.....my mum told me this is sacss tradition.......it ended like about 10.30 p.m just to finish their last post.......

Hmm...now i know what is my mum true colours and about the osmonds.....hey so tiring leh.....got to tell you that.....

LOVE,
Zarifah

[12:11 AM]

Missing you all day long

HITOMI WO TOJITE KOKORO NO MAMA BOKU WA KIMI WO OMOU

Ima hitomi wo tojite kokoro no mama boku ha kimi wo omou

Kaeri michi kousaten no mukou kimi ga ita
Nagai kami ga kaze to odoru
Kawarisou na shingou mitai na kono kimochi
Ato ippo ga fumi dasenai

Hashagi tsudukeru nakama tachi
Yuuyake iro no namiki michi
Kimi wo surechigatta...

Sou kagayakidashita kisetsu no naka no
Mirai he to tsuduku michi de
Tada hitomi wo tojite kokoro no mama boku ha kimi wo omou

Iki wo kirashi nori konda BASU ha hashiridasu
Hayaokuri no machi ga kureru
Kimagure ni kono ha wo yurashita ano kaze ha
Doko ni tadoritsukun darou

Yorimichi shite iru kodomo tachi
Kakato de funda mizutamari
Kimi ga hohoende ita ...

Sou sokudo wo ageta toki no nagare ha
Atarashii DOA hiraite
Tada hitomi wo tojite kokoro no mama boku ha kimi wo omou

Sou kagayakidashita kisetsu no naka no
Mirai he to tsuduku michi de
Tada hitomi wo tojite kokoro no mama boku ha kimi wo omou

Ima hitomi wo tojite kokoro no mama boku ha kimi wo omou

LOVE,
Zarifah

[11:08 AM]

Missing you all day long

hahaha...does everybody thing i`m strange or should i say it abnormal.....haha.....i`m normal lar.....don`t take it seriously......sometimes i don`t plan to be strange because i`m a different girl in school compared at home.......

In school.....i`m very quite and nice......huh......i wish my minah attitude but nevermind don`t go on to that......since then i switch the table the other way around........in school some of classmates realise that i am mumbling or whispering things to myself.....in fact i am praying hard lar.......i am a particular person....sometimes when i talk to myself means.....i`m very angry with that person......

At home........i am usually loud amony the two boys and three divas.....usually get into trouble and looking for a fight with my brothers....hahaha......people don`t quite know me well as you can see....they don`t know what I am strong at and what`s my weakness.......i am very thick-skin and very sombong......infront of my relatives,parents and my sibilings.....I also sometimes give type of bad attitude to the one younger than me......

Don`t worry......I am not very weird lar.....in that sense only who thinks that i am weird are those kind of weirdos.......haha......to me weirdos has these kind of special powers......I hate weirdos.......I would be pretty mad if someone calls me a weirdo.....trust me on this my blood would burst in this very high limit and that when it ends to a fight or a piece of prayer.....

LOVE,
Zarifah

[3:37 PM]

Missing you all day long

Rafiqah,Fazerah,Elleyana and Me

Elleyana,Me,Nabiilah,Syafiah and Rafiqah

I miss you guys...so much.....

LOVE,
Zarifah

[4:23 PM]

Missing you all day long

Today I have gone to this shopping mall that has the most elestronical stuff such as laptops,computers...... there are mostly much of laptops and computers.....everywhere you go there would be at least computers and aplliances......the malll is called funan mall....sigh.....

down there what cost $5.....huh? only the kfc lar....and so much food....mostly cost more than $600+......my father spend more than $2000....He bought this moniter,microsoft ware,a tennis racket,school shoes for us and dinner......

hey this is such a dangerous place for those type of i.t nerds........haha....sorry i don`t know how to say it seh.........for my brothers and me.....challenger was the i.t layground for us because there is the computers that you can use......nitendo wii,nitendo dsl......xbow 360......playstation 3 and many more.....hope i could go there again....

signing off.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[10:51 PM]

Missing you all day long

Friends are the greatest thing on earth you can see.......Let me tell me about my old friends form changkat primary and Nurul Nazihah.....

First is Rafiqah.....she is the most kindness,smart and supportive friend......she has helped me in my studies.....and very supportive.....she is also the type that is very friendly to be with.....not only that she is also nice......

Rini......She is alsolike Rafiqah and have been friends almost 4-5 years same like Rafiqah and Nabiilah........she is the funniest among the whole group.....she makes everyone laugh and she is the kind that everyone wants to be with....she is also quite a nice and firendly girl....

Nabiilah is the one that I miss the most.......she is quite an awesome kind of girl.....very active and always persists.....I always believe in her that she can do it.......she is one kind of girl that is very religious and smart....everyone likes to hang out of with her wih the exception of the school boys....

Elleyana........is quite a quite girl....once you get to know her more she will be those type of girl to be with......she is always very friendly and nice.....even if she is also angry.......she she loves hanging out with her friends the most.....sometimes when she has problems she would ask some help from the teachers and her peers....

Hasannah......is also quite nice and friendly.....i still don`t quite get it why people keep on making fun of her looks....i believe everyone is born beautiful including her.....she is girl that never gives up and keep on believing in herself.....i like these type of girls because they are like a listener and someone that you can talk to...

Fazerah.....very fun girl to mix arond.....always very cheerful and fun to be mix......quite friendly and has responsiblities as she was the moniteress and prefect of the school.......she is also the kind of person that cheer people up.....

Syafiah......is a girl that i always talk to.....she is quite nice and friendly....she ask questions and answers questions in class.....very responsile and never gives up....shows quite alot of effort....

Nurul Nazihah....a fun girl....very amiable......cool and sometimes can be talkative....hey just kidding.....knows each other quite well....have alot of things in common and done quite a lot of effort to go to express stream....and thanks for helping me in school and in tuition....

they are all true friends ....that i have been with.....and i hope one day that we couled hang out with each other one day....

LOVE,
Zarifah

[12:15 PM]

Missing you all day long

I have this very boring cat.Her name is Holly.....she usually sleeps like half a day......how can i not be bored when she does not entertain me like Queen and Squicky......

The first time I got her was on my birthday...She was quite an intellligent pussy cat.....she bit my mum`s hand while my mum was handling her.....the care taker of her was afraid to get her out of the cage because she was the ferious among the whole cats......

As time goes by.....she becomes lazier and sometimes active.......she is those kind of cat that is always clean....and well fed....now Holly is abang`s cat......she gives the look like 'hello listen up everything in this house is all mine'.......sigh.......

welll......

LOVE,
Zarifah

[8:55 PM]

Missing you all day long

My mum has this student.....Actually not her student but one of her friends student.He is a computer addiction......I have secreatly asked for helped in this cyber councelling and asked hoe this computer addiction starts....

But to me....it is either your studies or the gaming person who is a high level that can only live like three to four years....I am Like come on......Of course everyone would choose to study.......because once you finish your studies then you can start the gaming....and the cetificate that you would get live forever....copare to the gaming hero....or watever it`s called...

Now everyone think twice.....gaming now or study now....

LOVE,
Zarifah

[7:06 AM]

Missing you all day long