Should I or should I not forgive myself.....
Hey I have like higher risk to go for surgery.....and I`m scared okay......The people who are supporting are my friends,Nurul,my family......I`m scared.......I feel like crying but i`m a big girl...for what I cry......
I know my eye looks weird but I know when I go for surgery....who would watch me.....Those surgeons...who will be fixing.......I know surgeons do make mistakes.....I don`t want to be half blind like those television series people who has only one eye.......
The song dedication is a next time I promised.....but i`m scared okay....just for a surgery........I blame myself not going to the doctor early......my medicine is about to finished......I really hope that the medicine really works.........
I can cry now but how......I know it`s really complicated......How I wish when my mum should listen to me that I need to go to the doctor before that........I really can`t blame her of course.....I rather do what now....just sit and cry or nothing and think that everything gonna be okay......I don`t want to end up in a hospital.....because everyone is just gonna laugh at me because of the eye......
A note to my friends......
I`m sorry but to tell you all the truth,my eye thingy does not spread......if you don`t believe ask arh....your doctor.....It has nothing to do....It is not even a deadly or minor virus that spreads....Hello?
LOVE,
Zarifah
[1:50 PM]
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I have been thinking that I should changed my blogskin but to what.......okay....that`s the problem.....Paramore?Twilight? HEart Braker?......
Help me someone.....I also need a song dedication but what song?
Pussycat Dolls-WHen I grow up?
Paramore-That`s What you get?
Paramore-Crushcrushcrush....
Mostly I love Paramore but what song should I post
I think I know something different and old........Kidnap My Heart by The Click Five......
Woah.....I still listen to this song....I don`t care what type of person you call me but I have hearts on this song.......
I write later....got to do something...
LOVE,
Zarifah
[8:14 PM]
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So how is it?
Cool right.....I have changed my theme into a book called eclipse.....hahaha...my favourite phrase that was stated in the book was nevermind........Tell you the next time
So the lion fall in love with the lamb.....hahaha.....love that phrase from twilight....for those who has not read Breaking Dawn.....the book is very interesting......You read then later you know why......
And guess what I have already plan to do something on 12 of December....I plan to watch the twilight the movie with Nurul....the problem is I really don`t know how to book the tickets like the day before.....
I hope we would not see Aeron or Matthew....on that actually day.....because Aeron is such a big fan like me.....and Nurul.....hahaha.....
MY brother is a meanie.....he says guys who read these type of books are sissy....hahaha.....I was like HEllo.....almost everyone reads these type of books
LOVE,
Zarifah
[6:40 AM]
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Big Bang....Is it end of the world....
No it`s not going to be the end of the world....I know my teacher says that in theory that it would make a black hole...but i`m not afriad because these big bang is a project somewhere in Europe.It`s a project by the smartest people around the world.....
The only problem is why are people so worrid about it and no one has come to stopped them from doing this project..Like what Mr Ng says that they are smat people....Hello? Smart people also makes mistake....
Hey I know a black hole is dangerous but sometimes I got to believe my teacher it`s not going tooo affect us....He once said that his teacher said that doomsday would be 2005 but why are we still alive....I meant why is he still alive...
Here`s some research that I did;
Newspaper:www.telegraph.co.uk
'Big Bang' machine could destroy the planet, says lawsuit
By Tom Leonard in New York
Last Updated: 12:01am BST 01/04/2008
A giant particle accelerator that mimicks the effects of the "Big Bang" could destroy all life on Earth by sucking it into a black hole, a lawsuit claims.
Walter Wagner, who runs a botanical garden on Hawaii's Big Island, and Luis Sancho, a Spaniard, have asked for an injunction to prevent the European Centre for Nuclear Research, or Cern, starting up the Large Hadron Collider.
Physicists hope that the £4 billion device will provide clues to the universe's origins
The accelerator, which will be the world's most powerful particle smasher, is due to begin hurling protons at each other at its base outside Geneva this summer.Physicists hope that the device, which has taken 14 years and £4 billion to build, will provide clues to the universe's origins by mimicking its condition a trillionth of a second after the Big Bang.
Although Cern scientists have already ruled out the possibility in a safety review, Mr Wagner and Mr Sancho say there is at least a small chance of total annihilation of the planet and maybe the universe.
They claim Cern has under-played the chances that the collider could produce a tiny black hole or a particle called a "killer strangelet" that would turn the Earth into a shrunken lump of "strange matter".
Their lawsuit, filed in the Federal District Court in Honolulu, seeks a temporary restraining order banning Cern from finishing the accelerator until it has produced a safety report and an environmental assessment.
Defendants named in the suit are Cern, the US Department of Energy, the Fermi National Accelerator Laboratory and the National Science Foundation. The US Justice Department said it would represent the Energy Department at a meeting over the lawsuit in Hawaii in June.
Cern is not bound by an American court's jurisdiction, but Mr Wagner said a restraining order on Fermilab and the Energy Department, which helped to supply the accelerator's crucial super-conduction magnets, would be enough to stop the programme.
A spokesman for Cern said the lawsuit's claims were "complete nonsense". "Much higher energy collisions than those at the LHC occur in nature, because cosmic ray particles zip around our galaxy at close to the speed of light," he said.
"The moon has undergone such collisions for five billion years without being devoured by a ravenous black hole or killer strangelet."
If we don`t want this to happen we must pray to keep ou survival.....Let me explain more about this big big bang project....The big bang is actually a machine....It has a makes a perfect circle with its diameter 27 km.
Just imagine wow....It could be as big as singapore....My teacher also said the big bang is how the Earth stared......since it`s smart people..... I do trust them to continue this poject......I think if it creates a black hole there would be a way to switch off the machine......
So just pray okay....
LOVE,
Zarifah
[5:41 PM]
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Hmmm.....guess I have to wait.....then......
well even good luck charms doesn`t work....urgh......nevermind then....just gonna keep on reeading the twilight saga over and over again.......I don`t care how bored I will be but gonna keep reading and reading again until the book Midnight Sun is published....
Hey if anyone knows when it is gonna released tell me....
LOVE,
Zarifah
[8:54 AM]
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There will be another 4 days of holiday....sigh.....i would not give up next term....I promise......I been reading the twilight series over and over again....from twilight to new moon to eclipse and the to breaking dawn....
Trust me I read the whole entire thing about 3 to 4 times....and I just love the twilight series.....I broke my promises too....I promise myself to spent half a day at the national library....thanks to the twilight series it made me stay at home with my pjs(eventhough I already bath but I still want to wear my pj).
Of all the twilight books I find Breaking Dawn interesting....because I have read the book about 7 times this holidays.....and the others 3-4 times.....It tells about the marriage of Bella and Edward.....and Renesmee....guess what? The most dissapointing thing....Alice left.....I feel totally upset about that...urgh....Bella also turned into a vampire while giving birth to Renesmee.....so Renesmee is a half vampire and half human which made the whole story compilicated.....
Anyway I`m bored right now.....enjoy your holidays...
LOVE,
Zarifah
[12:55 PM]
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I`m feeling so bored......I have read the twilight series over and over agian......
Waiting for the movie is like waiting for the rain to stopped......not only that I also can`t wait for the book Midnight Sun.....I only read the draft that Sterphenie Mayers.....It`s very interesting....
Very equalvalent to twilight but it`s edward`s story.......I wish i`m Bella...getting to see Edward and not only that marrying him.....sigh...I wish that can happen.....Puasa.....patient....and must be more patient.....it`s like another 4 more hours.....to break fast.....Sigh.....If I can see a real life vegeterian vampire it is really my dream....
LOVE,
Zarifah
[3:00 PM]
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Hey today is the first day of the fasting month......I only stayed for four hours and i`m like dying to eat.......
I should have not eat abit before that now i`m thinking of ice-cream,chocolates and macdonlad`s.........why do I fast?
Hello....it`s the first of Ramadhan.....I hope my secondary school friends would not eat,drink or even make me sad or angry.....to me the fasting month is a blessing month.....where firstly i`m happy because all the ghost are locked up....and second of all is to show our ability without food and water.....
I know to the other races....it`s a shocked but you must believe I would fast the entire one month.....I know i`m the only muslim in my class....see whether I can cope with it or not......got to wait until 7.09 pm until can break my fast......
So that means when I fast I skipped lunch....hey isn`t that good?
I don`t know.....hahaha...
LOVE,
Zarifah
[10:16 AM]
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Name:Zarifah Aliah Bte Zulkifli
