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♥Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Ok guys there some show that I wanted to watch it's called Harper Island....i heard the show damn shiok!

So here's a preview.

You watch it la...but it's not exactly the same one from channel 5 where they only show faces of the person.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[6:38 PM]

Missing you all day long

I do want someone back just to let you know that...

I do miss that person alot.I feel so bad and horrible and i think even feel so guilty.

Today...

Home was soooo boring.I had to clean up my room and now I don't know what to do. But I just give a song dedication from Cobra Starship.

The song is called Guilty Pleasure

And I came here to make you dance tonight
I don’t care about my guilty pleasure for you

And I don’t even know what kind of fool you’re taking me for
so you got some brand new clothes you never could afford before
oh brother spare us all

we don’t care anymore
we just wanna get down on the floor
you sell yourself to make it
you can dish it but can you really take it
You never gonna get it with nothing‘
coz nothings what you got in your head
so stop pretending

I came here to make you dance tonight
I don’t care about my guilty pleasure for you

shut up cos we wont stop
we’re getting down till the suns coming up
I came here to make you dance tonight
I don’t care about my guilty pleasure for youshut up cos we wont stop
we’re getting down till the suns coming up

And I don’t even read what the papers gotta say about me
Oh no, I can’t believe they’d take it so serious, seriously
I’m so bored, please, don’t talk anymore
shut your mouth and get down on the floor
so cynical, baby, I can dish it cos I know how to take it
you’re never gonna win ‘em allso f@#k ‘em if they can’t take a joke

I’m just playing
I came here to make you dance tonight

I don’t care about my guilty pleasure for you
shut up cos we wont stop
and we’re getting down till the suns coming up
I came here to make you dance tonight

I don’t care about my guilty pleasure for you
shut up cos we wont stop
we’re getting down till the suns coming up

And maybe someday
I’ll believeMaybe someday I’ll believe
That we are all a part of some bigger plan
Tonight I just don’t give a damn
So shut your mouth it’s time to dance

If the world is ending, I’m throwing the party
I came here to make you dance tonight
I dont care about my guilty pleasure for you
shut up cos we wont stop
and we’re getting down till the suns coming up
I came here to make you dance tonight
I don’t care about my guilty pleasure for you

shut up cos we wont stop
we’re getting down till the suns coming up

LOVE,
Zarifah

[6:14 PM]

Missing you all day long

It was Earth Day yesterday...

I guessed Regine's favourite day...sighs...sighs...

Ya had school but early in the morning around 8.00 am when for breakfast with Denise,Calysta,Sufi and Jannah at Macdonald..

Ya we then started to talk about the things that are going around the school like goosebump things that I don't think you guys really want to know about it.

After breakfast we went to Ntuc to buy chocolates and more chocolates. Sufi bought Cadbury chocolate the big packet...I bought 2 Sneakers and 2 hersey chocolates....after that Jannah had planned to walk to school than taking a bus...

Had fun walking along the way found a shopping cart....haha....I went inside the cart and Denise and Sufi pushed me...Had lots of fun although we did not care who was watching us...ya about Caylsta and Jannah...they kinda run away because they don't want the neighbourhood to caught us....

Ya Jannah said it will be a 15 minutes walk but I guess she was wrong it was kinda of 30-40 minutes walk...man...i`m not a kind of person who likes to walk on the hot sun....but nevermind

Ya in school had attire check and whatever sound check before going to Republic Poly...I was kinda excited.....Ya had to perform....When we were practicing Gubahanku I was feeling very angry with myself(I guess...) because we kept repeating our own mistake...

After practicing the two songs....Had to help packed up....Than went back to the bus....I was damn tired but Ria kinda wake me up but damn funny leh...she asked me not to sleep and we were talking about things about the angklung band and somethings in school....but I can't tell you because it's a secret...

When we reached in school had to carry the angklung and the other stuffs...I fell down by the staircse....I could not bring myself up as I could not lift my left foot .....Denise and Mr Quack had to helped me...thanks to them I think i'm much better...

Then I had to wait for my mum to fetch me up and bring me to the doctor which I did....man...It was kinda painful arou=nd Midnight...i could not bare the pain and Akmal did not switch off the tv as Elmo's World was still on...

Now I don't know...but I really want to sleep

LOVE,
Zarifah

[10:04 PM]

Missing you all day long

Here's a video that really did cheer me up abit....because today...I really don't want to talk about it and I'm really tired now....

and guess what? Guess what?

ok here goes....I did my own record yesterday....and and...It is to hold my pee since my senior's senior came to going back home:

I hold because...

1.Fadilah is scaary
2.I was nervous of her.

and i did it....Woo....Ok...that's all..haha

LOVE,
Zarifah

[10:09 PM]

Missing you all day long

Hey guys....there`s something serious that I want to talk to you guys....I don`t know whether I should close this blog down for good...because I can`t simply don`t know what to write about....It`s like eveytime I have to write something on the blog I have to pay myself to write....

ok....what really happened yesterday?

Merissa birthday....

Timeline

0600-Iron my costume and prepare to go to school
0800-0815-Was on my way to school
0930-1000-Had briefing to do...
1000-1215-Practice Gubahanku and Siboney
1215-1315-Had lunch....Oh-my-god the food was so disgusting....
1315-1515-Rehersal...firstly did terrible...
1515-1615-Kena scolding by seniors...and had to read the score again and again...
1615-1645-Had tea break and prepare the costume worn...
1645-1900-Performance
1900-1910-Debriefing and end....
1925-home

My god...had a long day yesterday until at night I cooked 2 packets of Maggi noodles because I was damn hungry..luckily there was my grandfather who fetched me up from school I was weak and tired by then....

And yesterday went I checked the timetable...I was like..ooh no...no...this can`t be happening...and it will happen tomorrow....sighs...sighs....

LOVE,
Zarifah

[2:43 PM]

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Today at Malaysia....

Ok I went to malaysia today.Okay if you were wondering why I was not in school ,I was at Malaysia.Ya had to wake up around 8 in the morning to prepare myself.I felt so excited.

Ya after that had to go to rumah Mak Ucu(Mak Ucu's house) because I was going in her car.Ya so in her car I listened to 98.7 fm....there was some things that I don't agree....If you were listening....they said about girl can not hit on boys....they must be hit....something like that...I guess it was wrong because I know some people who are not shy(not me) would go up to a guy and say "hi"...ya i think some of it...I totally agree...

Ya drove all the way to tuas....wah,there wasn`t any long jam except when we reached at Malaysian checkpoint....it was damn crowded...thankfully I had something good today than complaining about the traffic jam....

After we pass the checkpoints....we went to these shopping centre at Bukit Indah...Oh-my-god.....I enjoyed...my first reaction when I saw two malaysian ladies wearing A&W tees...oh god,must go and get conney dog and curlie fries...which I got it when we were about to go...later tell you...

Ya than we went around the shopping mall like from 11am to 3 pm.....ya had lunch at Sushi King...oh man forgot to tell you guys...my cousin,Amiee and her maid wore the same baju as me....ya...so had fun...oh yes...before having lunch played you know that dancing thing at the arcade....walao so hard leh....and people was looking at me and bibik....

ya so at 3 pm we left....than went to Singapore EXPO for the Robinson sale and the halal food exhibiton....Ya i ate alot of the small hotdog...I think it was totally worth it..mum bought alot of stuffs from robinson....ya she did asked what do I want for my birthday...I said I want a pair of converse shoes from Tampines Mall....ya since that is what i want....

Than something made me angry...one of the motorcycle mat touched my hand thinking that I was his girlfriend...At first I thought it was my mum but suddenly I realised my mum was infront of me...so I did glare at him...for like 30 seconds...if my best friend was still my best friend and was there.....I bet he already punched that mat...See the thing that I was damn pissed off was he kept on laughing....c'mon he should at least say sorry or something....like for touching me like that....

Sighs...sighs...after that we went home...now i`m damn tired...tomorrow I do have work and cca...I got to go for both...

LOVE,
Zarifah

[7:44 PM]

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Why on Earth did somebody spam on Zandra`s blog whereas it`s not even me....I didn`t do it but nevermind...I did talk to Zandra on the phone around 5pm....ok I forgive you....She was like apologising me....

I had school 9 in the morning...sighs...maths class....ya from 9 to 10....sighs...only one hour that one hour is not included the noise that some people made....that means about 20 minutes of lesson....

Oh yes yesterday I went to Jade`s house with Letitia and Claire....oh-my-god.....I had this retro style that I`m in loved now....haha we also did take some pictures while waiting for Jade to wake up and get ready....

nevermind I will upload the picture later....

I also had a job with my mum...just for today...had to rearrange her students file....sighs....it takes me 45 minutes just to put it according to register number....Man....all I remembered was....from class 4E4....one missing file(I think) and two nameless file without any name inside...what I meant was there wasn`t any name of the students not even a single sheet of paper...from class 4E1....Two missing files.....

Ya after that...I went to switched on my mum`s laptop and found that Charlotte tagged on my tagboard saying that someone accused me of spamming her blog...sighs...I don`t even do this sort of things....but nevermind...Zandra had said sorry and I already forgive her...The reasons why I forgave her was:

1.I don`t want to fight with anyone at this period of time when I had cried for two weeks and six days...
2.I`m a forgiving person so do bear with it...
3.Zarifah doesn`t want to take revenge or anything...
4.Zarifah doesn`t want others to think that I`m a minah....I`m not anymore ok....maybe sometime I can be one...

Ya that`s why....

Do you know that Changkat Changi school library looks better than ours....that`s not fair....

LADIES AND GENTLEMENT
I do like their library better than ours....they do have better books than ours because I know...How I know....

Like "duh"...because I do follow my mum to border`s sale at expo(sometimes) and she will order new books for the school...They have all sort of books inside....I want to spent my day there...but since there`s SYF practices going on...SYF is more important....

You know what...after SYF...I will promised myself to go to my mum`s school and spent the day there....

Ya you got me...got me...

Man....I wish our school library was like this....because there are soooooo many boring books....don`t worry Zarifah...I can always go to my mum school to borrow the books...haha...

LOVE,
Zarifah

[7:24 PM]

Missing you all day long

Here`s a video dedication to you know who....you have made me upset...and even more upset...I did broke your heart because I got a meaning to it....And here,thanks for making me angry because this video is for you...

It tells you things how to act on your first date....I can`t believe it...that you did make me heartbroken...because of the things you did...

I have changed my impressions for you...I don`t care if i`m crying or laughing...because you have made me cry for almost two weeks...and my eyes are totally wreaked...by the way thanks ok...I`m ok...even i`m not okay...I do have friends that will be there for me...

And the ring and the roses...I think it`s meaningful at first but the roses made it meaningless now...

LOVE,
Zarifah

[9:14 PM]

Missing you all day long

A meaningful video please watch..

Yes please watch it...

LOVE,
Zarifah

[9:13 PM]

Missing you all day long

ya today I had the longest day...I guess....I had to go to school for cca...Ya cca starts at 8 and ended at 12.30 pm....Ya so finally we did quite well...I guess...we score like around 5 to 6 out 10 but our aim is to aim above 8.

So after cca...I had to go to Yishun Junior College....sighs...It took me 1 hour by train and 30 minutes to look for the school until Cedrick and Amanda had to look for me at Northpoint....I did alot of things...You know what is it?

I had 2 cup corn.
I had 1 donut.
I had 1 fruit punch.
I had to dunk Cedrick and his friends in the tank.

To tell you guys honestly,I was freakingly bored there....There was not much things to do...and Cedrick was soooo thick skin...

Conversation on our way to Yishun JC...

Cedrick and Amanda talking about certain stuffs that Zarifah does not bother to listen....

Cedrick:I am so popular in school..you know that...haha...see alot of people comes to my stall...
Amanda:Ya but my stall also attracted lots of people...
Zarifah:*mumbles to herself something* I guess Cedrick only attracts girls...that`s why he`s so popular....
Cedrick:I wanted to buy the same tee like yours,Amanda...
Amanda:Why didn`t you change..
Cedrick:I guess it was too late to change...By the way I hate tree that is located here..
Zarifah:What does the tree represents?
Cedrick became speechless...

Another one was...
Cedrick:See i`m smart..haha...stupid...
Zarifah:Why are you calling Amanda stupid?
Cedrick:Sorry,I meant nevermind....

Sighs...sighs....

Ever since Cedrick went to Yishun JC....I guess he has became more thick skin or should I say loyak buruk....haha....nevermind...But I think I was so happy that I dunk Cedrick...so stupid man...I think he weigh alot until my school P.E t-shirt was wet....

I didn`t think he heard me saying something....but nevermind...

At least I was being supportive and went to Cedrick and Amanda`s school...see how supportive I am?

Zarifah...sighs...you almost did cry didn`t I? Try to control it...and when you want to cry....cry in your room....

What the hell was I thinking?

LOVE,
Zarifah

[9:01 PM]

Missing you all day long

Today someone has cheered me up and make my day....I think after two weeks of crying finally I get to laugh....

Ya...Thank god there was my best friend,Nurul Nazihah there for me during tuition without her maybe I would still be upset....over life....

I was at home.Having bad cramps.I do come for tuition for the sake of myself and her....we can`t be seperated because we`re best friends.....

Ya so the funniest thing in tuition was we were making faces while taking pictures....and the horrible one of all,I STAINED MY JEANS!!!

ARGH!!So hard to get back home,luckily mama was there to fetch me up....so sorry Nurul I had to go early...I hope that`s ok with you...

I got to reflect myself:

Tomorrow before going to school

Every night saying that someone loves you

Making sure that I would not cry for another week or not it will be 3 weeks in a row...

Stop listening to Jenny because I know that makes it sad

LOVE,
Zarifah

[8:51 PM]

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Ya it`s the end of me...

I don`t know what to do...but all I could think of is to cry damn hard until these swelling eyes bleeds....I know you guys might think that these is to emo...but the challenges that i`m facing is unbearable....

Here am I...speechless,sucky,crying and maybe useless.....Oh dear god,what`s happening to these united world...maybe it`s because I`m stuck in another dimension...I know I do feel bad of what I did...because you know why? It`s because of these chaotic thing going through my head....

See I`m listening to the most old song,Stay my baby by Miranda Cosgrove....It`s running through my head...Everything`s going be okay,everything`s going be alright....

But the sight point of my view...things are not okay....Because you know why?Ihave been crying since the last two weeks....and look at my freakingly ugly eyes....It`s swelling....It`s not helping me...It sucks...I want to smile...but i can`t.....I don`t know why...Maybe my parents doesn't know that i`m even....Now the song that`s what you get by paramore is running through my head...maybe the lyrics is right about me,That what you get when you let your heart wins....

Why am I upset for the last two weeks?

I DO CARE ABOUT MY CCA(ANGKLNG BAND)!!I try my best every practice to do better than the previous practice....and maybe the remarks that my seniors give make me feel kinda hopeless...but I promise I will do my best....

I LOST FRIENDSHIP......I don`t know why but i lost friendship with you know who....but I think that`s why people say "Friendship can turned sour"....

I KIND OF HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE GIVE BAD REMARKS OF ME.....maybe that`s why....

OR

MAYBE ZARIFAH WAS GIRL WHO WAS BORNED NOT TO BE RELAXED.....I can`t calmed myself right now....I feel like going to the airport right now...and start crying while seeing the plan go off....

I just don`t want to talked about today....It`s horrible....You know what i`ve been saying to myself to shut this blog...but I seem to pay every penny to myself to write.....

Maybe I need to go on a holiday...and rest and maybe calmed myself down for good...

LOVE,
Zarifah

[10:10 PM]

Missing you all day long

Ya today we had school as usual....

YA first we had IT lessons.....man,sorry guys....I just didn`t know what props to bring.....sorry ok....than the scariest thing of my not exactly my life but Ms Ezan`s.....I found her pass to the computer lab...I was like damn....I shouldn`t give it back to her because I can easily go in and out of the computer lab....but nevermind....I guess it was the right thing to do....

Then came dance,dance,dance....sighs....I do love dance but I just don`t want to show my movements...i`m those shy shy types....and I know my best friend will be ya right.....Jade,dearest friend,hope you`re really okay..get some rest ok...and don`t think hard......I know how irritating I can be that it can cause a headache,I`m sorry....

Next was recess...Rachael thanks for knewing how upset I was....It was difficult to keep these feelings like more than 2 weeks...thanks for letting my feelings out...because I really did need to cry...because you know why....I want to cry again...i mean now....but I can`t let it go here....because these is not the right place and timing to do it again....

After that,it when as usual but it was not usual....sighs...sighs.....after school I had to walked like a complete idiot at Tampines Smart....while waiting for Nurul to finshed school...not only that I had to buy her lunch because I knew she would be totally hungry after the maths thingy....

Ya she said something about a baby photo of me...HELLO? was I the cutest...no la...there`s like a million baby who`s more cuter than me...I`m not...you guys want to see....I know you guys really want to see the photo...

I really don`t know why she said this baby photo of me was so cute.....but it was when I was a baby...now I`m like 13 plus...and my birthday isn`t far away...8 April....ghee Zarifah what do you actually want for your birthday....I don`t know...I want to know whether the David Archuleta thing is worth it or not....

Some people say yes...and some people say no it`s not....I got to think before I really want to go...because there`s still like a million things in my list that I always wanted....but one of them is to see Ryan Ross for live.....Don`t worry Ryan...who knows maybe 10 or 20 years later I will get to see you...

LOVE,
Zarifah

[8:01 PM]

Missing you all day long

Sighs....what a long day today....I can`t believe I end up this tired....already just now early in the morning I went to send my dad to the airport....haha.....He has this business retreat...so Hell yeah! I have been up since 4 am....and have not had rest even since coming back from the airport....

Then I went to get grocceries....Wow! It has been like a month my mum and I had not get the grocceries....Ya....Almost bought the whole of Giant but we didn`t....I remembered buying burger patties,Potato Chips and Snapple...

Ya after that Cedrick,Amanda,Hannan( I guess),Cedricks brother and Erickson came....Wow I had to cook for them....man I`m sure going to kill Cedrick....sighs...but I couldn`t....today he wore shirt,bermudas and something interesting,his geeky glasses where you get the stuff from Bugis Street.....Ya....I thought Hadi was coming so mum asked me to cook extra.....

Ya...Then after a while Cedrick called me "Maria",his maid....sighs...sighs...Do I even look like one...Hey I cook for you almost every Saturday and you call me that,huh....Ya he also said that he wants to get me a big birthday present....I wonder what is it.....I hope I don`t get a birthday bash like last time....was hit by flour and then was thrown inside the pool....nah...I don`t think he will do that....

Cedrick and Amanda was selling tickets...and on the back of my tees...was "Here comes the sunshine"...so Cedrick kept on saying I`m his sunshine unless I buy his tickets....but I did bought it from Amanda....haha....Ya that`s when we talked about "playboys"....Because Akmal and Erickson kept on saying that Cedrick is a playboy....so to me playboys are always horny...so haha...

and then they had to study again and I was using mum`s laptop....ya So after that I went to joined Cedrick....ya...he was talking all sort of jokes that I did not bother to listen like an example...

Cedrick:Woah,I want to join those guys in the pool....
Me:Join la...
Cedrick:Luckily I bought extra underwear...
Me:*Blank face*
Me:haha...seriously?...
Cedrick:Yup....

I was at first disgusted but I knew he was playing with me....so today who irritate me the most...It`s my korkor(correct right?) Cedrick....ya....and then I could not concentrate and was looking for Ryan Ross picture...

LOVE,
Zarifah

[7:11 PM]

Missing you all day long

There`s five thing that I`m crazy about and I`m going to tell you today.....hahaha....but don`t laugh ok....

Let`s start with the last one first than to the most important thing that I`m crazy about.....

Number 5:

If starship cobra comes to Singapore,I bet I will be the first one in the family to scream and talk about it...I totally love their songs!Like an example is Hollaback boy and I kissed a boy...haha

They are totally awesome!

Number 4:

It`s a must for Forever the sickest kids to come to singapore....I also do love them...I support you,Caleb Turman(guitar),Kyle Burns(Drums) and Johnathn Cook(Lead songer)....You guys rock!

Number 3:

I`m crazy of old songs all of a sudden...haha...bare with it if I mumble or sing it to myself in class....like I write sins not tragedies....but it`s now nine in the afternoon!

Number 2:

David will be coming to Singapore and everyone knows it.....and I want him to perform during my Birthday....Guess what? Zarifah Aliah may not come for his concert because firstly,she has cca and it`s more important....sobs....it`s a school day...and it`s a monday...sad..so sad....

Number 1:

I don`t care if it`s a school day but I must see the band panic at the disco! and she must shout "I love you,Brendon Urie and Ryan Ros...you guys rock!".....sighs I wish they could come and then I could see Ryan Ross face...

Ladies and gentlement this is Ryan Ross...isn`t he cute...Like duh.....ok Benjamin this is whom I refering to...and don`t make fun of Ryan Ross...because he does not look like a girl and I totally want him....

LOVE,
Zarifah

[7:13 PM]

Missing you all day long

YAY! Happy 200 post to me....within 1 and a half year I manage to update my blog...wow....isn`t that alot...but I really appalaud Namira and her friend,Maryam(I think)....ya they had update more than me.....ghee thanks guys...

sighs...I have just recently..no i meant two hours ago I just finished my cca.....angklung band....sighs.....I just wished there wasn`t any singapore youth festival...but the person who god knows who created it.....thanks alot.....

Ok i went to school...reached there around 6.55 am....so first period was literature....ghee I wish it was something else....ya we had to show the class our mind map...actually I guessed it was mine because I did it by myself...but nevermind...ya Ms San was questioning us about Dill,Jean and Boo Radley....ya so half of it Kim answered it....but at least it was logical....then she said something about the theme GOOD VS. EVIL....something like that.......ya than half way we had to stopped because we had photo taking....I was like what the hell...no teacher told us about that....So we had to go to the cca foyer to take photo...sighs....also had to pay $3...man....if my teacher had told us earlier I would brought extra....

Ya after that was...VE(value education)..ya we had talked about some survival kit thingy...ya someone had to adopt me because I recieved no card....ya I went to charlotte`s grup which had Rachael,Rasmi,Florence and Charlotte herself...ya...it was kinda dramatic when you know whose inside....like I was so angry at her...urgh...

After that was PE....had to run 5 rounds around the basketball court....and then had to play some games...Wow! It was damn fun....haha....then had recess...I can`t remember what I ate...but all i remembered is I had Ice tea...s=I love the Ice tea....

Ya after that...It was English...I felt so weak...I almost wanted to sleep so that`s why you all could see my standing up because for the good of paying attention.....Ya she was talking about our comprehension...I was tired to listen to Ms tan`s nagging...but I had no choice but to listen...

And then that was our maths....guess how much i scored...22 put of 35...ya I think I really did my best to achieved this kind of results...but I knew I could do better than this....man, if I really had some more time...I could check more on my carelessness......but this is reality...Got to accept the fact that i got that for my common test...haha....

Ya than came the time for assembly,all the leaders had to stay in clas....ya but i went to the hall...we had some talk about some discussion...ya...You know what...I think the school should add more sanitary pad machines....because it`s damn freaking tired to find one...in the toilet..and it will be consider hard because mostly some girls I know,run out of pads fast....

It was than time for lunch...sighs....went with the groupie...haha....almost wanted to cry along with Denise...as friends....

Ya ,Chelsea if you`re reading this....i`m sorry that I think I did not perform well like what you wanted....I tried and tried until I wanted to pass out...I`m sorry that you were really fed up with us....because of us(angklung band)....and had to walk away from us...I promised to do my best...

There was one time Ms Martens said something about the woman who inspired me....the women who inspired me is my mum,Ellen Degeneres,Oprah Winfrey and Ms Malenie Martens....ya that`s for all...because i have my reasons why this women inspired me alot...haha

LOVE,
Zarifah

[8:19 PM]

Missing you all day long

I am not going to be crazy...thank god.....YAY

This girl over here...will promise to be HAPPY!!yes...and not emotional hurt nor heartbroken....

Asked why?

She will be moving on in her life....on her own....very secrured and strong....and she will be best friends with Nurul and Sufi and Denise until the end...oh not forgeting Caylsta.....she finally understands why is she wrong....

If you want to know I explained to you tomorrow....

Ya...to that person,

It`s ok if you don`t want to be friends with me anymore...I`m okay with that...because i`m going to move on in my life...and will try to be the happest girl in my life....

How was school?

Great I guessed....Thanks Rachael i have learnt alot about the jazz dance....your presentation was great...May god bless you,haha....I also had e maths learning where I had to learnt how to use my ace learning portile....

Although the teacher was like kinda mad...but I really learnt alot....Indian dances you did perform well today...*applause*...haha...

Zaf is okay now....all she has to do is forget the past memories and go on...or not this heartbroken heart will not be cured and she will be left....I don`t know what...amybe a girl whose looking for attention...

LOVE,
Zarifah

[9:06 PM]

Missing you all day long

A new song dedication..some of you might know...I know that I`m not forgiven...but i`m really sorry....please tell me....And I will support you.....I almost did cry in drama...I don`t know but maybe the things that you did for me...

Kiss me out of the bearded barley
Nightly, beside the green, green grass
Swing, swing, swing the spinning step
I'll wear those shoes and you will wear that dress.

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me, out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand, Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling, So kiss me.

Kiss me, down by the broken tree house
Swing me, upon it's hanging tire
Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat
We'll take the trail marked on your father's map

Oh, kiss me, beneath the milky twilight
Lead me, out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling, So kiss me

Kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling (x2)
Oh so kiss me
So kiss me
So kiss me
So kiss me

Kiss me by New Found Glory....

I want to say thanks to Rackael aka Rachael...thanks babe...for helping to cheer me up and some of my friends who knows...the situation...If you knew that I was gonna cry during drama just ignore me....

and the joke remember this....

2 foreginer who want to learn english....ya so there was this indian and filipino maid....ya so the teacher asked them to make a word with these chicken nut and bread...

So the indian man...said I eat chicken for dinner,bread for lunch and nut for tea....

The teacher was wowed with the answer...

So what did the maid said

Today I went to my mum`s room and smack a pillow on her face and said chicken nut bread.....

Yaya...it`s kinda lame.....

Thanks RACHAEL YOU`re the best...I`m sorry if i irritated you....because I WOKE AT THE WRONG SIDE OF THE BED!!!

LOVE,
Zarifah

[3:18 PM]

Missing you all day long

Ok...some things I promise not to do.....and promise myself maybe tomorrow and in the future.....

1.Never say "I like you to a new friend that you made a few days ago...."
2.Try to be happy and not be upset....some of you know why....and the reasons....although I`m upset and heartbroken now....
3.Never to cry in the bedroom...for my stupidness....
4.Be prepared for another tomorrow....
5.Always think that he is willingly to take you back as a friend....
6.Don`t cry in class....until you`re prepared to do so...

Ok girls...there some things that you might know....I have been sad....these past few days....as I am really trying to help Eleanor to stop the spamming thing from going.....I did talk to Eleanor on the phone on Friday night....

and this is what she said....

1.She did not say that you`re stupid(NA)....if she`s really calling us stupid....she said that she is also calling her boyfriend stupid....

2.She was hurt...when Charlotte insulted her and called her "Bitch".....to me...seriously you two stop....Ya that`s why she called Charlotte "Farmer"....

3.She does not like Charlotte when Charlotte spread bad things about her....that`s why her friends and her spread bad things about Charlotte....

Ok....Eleanor and Charlotte and some spammers( I know who are you but I don`t want to mention your name).......if you`re reading this please stop...

You`re giving me and some people I know a big headache....I really don`t want to fight with you but what you`re giving me and my friends are some childplay.....I really don`t know how to stop...) and now I`m trying....

I do feel like quiting to write my blogs....and I do want to have peace and friendshipness with the normal classes and the express classes....I don`t know which side am I know....to tell you honestly I`m in both side....and it`s better if you two apologise at the same type...

LOVE,
Zarifah

[2:58 PM]

Missing you all day long