BLOW ME AWAY

♥Monday, August 31, 2009

Take off your shoes
Come in the room
And baby, let's try not to argue
Turn out the lights
Turn on the radio
How can we fight when
I'm too busy loving you
I'm too busy loving you
I'm too busy loving you

-She's a lady by Forever the Sickest Kids

I'm sorry that I left just like that without any reasons. Ignore the picture. I just need to let it out okay. I guess yesterday I cried and cried for more than hours. Not because I met my primary school friends, it's because of one phone call, I recieved last night.

My aunt called, she wanted to talk to my dad. By then I knew something was really weird. My jaw really dropped when I asked my father what happen. My cousin's uncle whom I always talk to at every of my aunt's party organisied by her had just pass away, yesterday in Manila.

It was then, I started crying and crying. By that time I was singing Christofer Drew's song and finding a piece of lyric to put in the blog. I cried first. My father hugged me and told me it was alright. Mummy wasn't around because she had teacher's day dinner. When she reached home, I was still crying and called Nurul to talk about it.

I really don't know I just cried and walk out for a slow walk before I could sleep. Everytime, I wanted to go to sleep, I always wanted to cry. I could not take it a longer. So I just went to sleep. In the morning. I didn't woke up even better but it felt so much worse. I felt like someone haad punched me three times hard than I am usually punched at.

This isn't a dream, it's reality. Everyone has to faced it once in awhile. I had tried closing my eyes and counted to ten to know whether it's a dream but it did turn out true it was reality that I was facing.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[9:54 PM]

Missing you all day long

Yeah, I'm moving on, but that's the way it goes.
When you break my heart, everybody knows.
Don't pull that shit again.
For me now, but I'm building up.
I can see that I've had enough
Of you.I'm finally through.

-Liar liar by nevershoutnever

Seriously, I can't stop with my teenage obsession on Christofer Drew. He's really great I think I should create a fanclub for him in Singapore. Just checked on his video blog on youtube and he's so adorable.

And I did a fanclub in facebook. Hope people in Singapore who loves him very much will join the fanclub.

Secondly, I'm really afraid about tomorrow because i'm meeting my teachers. Hopefully I will not be so racist towards my primary school mates. Today really tiring will talk about it tomorrow.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[9:06 PM]

Missing you all day long

That's just the way, just the way, just the way things
'Cause the boys are feeling jealous
And it just doesn't make any sense
Go on and tell them
All the girls are into fellas
That toss 'em to the side in the end
And you know that all the, The boys are falling in love
With girls who don't know what's up
We think we've all had enough of this now
These kids are talking 'bout love
We think we've all had enough
We've had enough of this now

-Girls do what they want by The Maine

Today I really can't believe that my granny now is watching Michael Jackson's world tour. Funny woman. Well I really can't imagine the first week of fasting month is over. Well, i'm not fasting because I have special reasons for the first few days now. But seriously, I hate it.

Okay today. I really don't know what's going on with me but I just want to tell you the whole nightmare I had a few days ago, but I really hope the continuation really stop. Okay, I think my dream is trying to tell me to be really careful because the thing is I really don't know who is that person in my dream. It's like his face is a total blank. I can't see but I know one day it would happen to me. The reason I have been emotional is because of this dream that has been like replaying over and over again as if it's a tape recorder. I think I do feel confident now to share it since, I really can't hide it any longer before it really affects me.

Okay the freaking scary dream is about me, it was like one night I was walking home, I was really pushed to the floor and dragged behind a tree because it's night, there was no one around and it's like a total silent. I tried to scream and called for help but there was no one who could help me. Well, then the person started touching me and I really did cry. After the incident was over, I just cried behind the tree hoping no one could see me crying in pain.

Yes but suddenly I woke up crying later because it seems so real. I really don't know what to say because I know the only person that really could help me was Denise, Sufi and Nurul. I really hope that it does not come for real.

Well, some people will just say, it's just a dream what for do I need to worried well some people don't really know whether it will come true because there was once I dreamt that I will almost hit by a car near Eastpoint and really came true.

Oh my granny is really freaking me out! She clapping to the tempo of the late Michael Jackson's song. Well, happy birthday, late Michael Jackson and please rest in peace

LOVE,
Zarifah

[8:03 PM]

Missing you all day long

Somebody turn the lights on,
Somebody tell me what's wrong,
I'd be lying if I told you,
Losing you was something I could handle,
Somebody turn the lights on,
Somebody tell me how long,
All this darkness will surround you,
Cause I'm burning for you,
Burning like a candle

-Candles 'Sick and Tired' by White Tie Affairs

Hello people! You were probably wondering why I was not in school. Firsty, I was in school but on my way to school, I started having a cold, really bad cold. So went to the canteen then waited for Jade and Farhana. Then when they arrived, Netto, Franziska and Rachael had just arrived. By then I was asking Netto why she didn't come yesterday.Sighs. I think it has gotten something to do with Breaking Dawn so we were speaking about really alot of things.

Then suddenly my eyes really became swollen because of my running nose. I blame my nose for all of these to happen. I need to study not stoned at home. Then Mr Po asked to watch my eyes which kinda worsen my eyes. Then had to sit down. You know what? Teachers, please stop spreading out to the other teachers that my mum is a HOD from Changkat. You know what, later I might found out that one by one the teachers will pass to another teacher to another teacher. Soon, the whole school will know.

Then had to go to the General Office. Went to sickbay. Thanks,Franziska! I love you! Thanks for helping me. My eyes were really swollen. Had to call my grandfather then suddenly, my aunt came and fetched me up then she brought me to Pelatok. After that, I was brought to the doctor. I tell you, I really had an uncomfortable ride because I was really tired.

Then slept, until Mummy called. I really don't know what I was saying because she called when I was sleeping by then, I woke up it was like 1.30 pm, 15 mintues before school ends. Yes, then had lunch. Then took medicine and watched tv. Really had no clue what to watch so I kept changing the channel. Kept changing from MTV to Star Movies to Suria. Then really watch MTV until 3 pm. Then kept playing sims 3 and listening to songs. Then it was then 5.30 pm, I watch my indonesian drama from Suria. Love that show!

Then had dinner with Mummy and abang at Sempang. Now home.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[8:28 PM]

Missing you all day long

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up,
And every night I miss you,
I can just look up,
And know the stars are,
Holding you,holding you, holding you,
Tonight

-Tonight by FM Static

I know the lyrics matched the picture but Final Fantasy the Movie has been my latest animation addicition. Okay when my brother goes to Japan, I will ask him to get for me that DVD movie. I'm like not good at the games except I really know what is going on.

When did this addiction started?
Hmmm. Last night. Cloud is hot. I mean look at him. I bet the producer did a very good job on Tifa ans Cloud but too bad this isn't a virtual world. I bet when there's really a real character acting on Cloud, I bet he would be the most hottest and muscular star. And someone as Tifa could be someone like Megan Fox.

Finally it's the second day of the fasting month and everything is going on smoothly. My god,the weather is so shiok. I went to the Joo Ciat Fair Price, I tell you suddenly, I was like in pain because I had cramps because the market was like so close. Then Mummy wanted to buy a plastic cover for the dinning table so we had to wait for awhile for nenek and Mummy then we went home. When we were going there it was so chaotic, there was traffic jam at Geylang.

Then thankfully going back was okay because there were no traffic jam or anything. I really do want to sleep today but I was planning to study abit about Final Fantasy. Then print out Ramlee's powerpoint. I tell you he only want to waste my paper. I bet among all my family members, I think i'm the only one that is wasting papers after papers.

Then wait until 5.00 pm to rest and do free and easy things then later it was 6.10 pm, had to prepare food for breaking of fast at dawn. Dinner was great except that I was full can't touch anymore on prawns and mushroom. I want to do lots of things tomorrow so I think I better sleep early tonight. I Love Final Fantasy! I actually love Tifa because it does sound abit like my name. HEHE!

Chaio. I seriously have to talked to them about my horrible dream but if I communicate through msn, I don't think they could understand what am I trying to say.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[8:33 PM]

Missing you all day long

Can we fast-forward to go down on me?
Stop there and let me correct it
I wanna live a life from a new perspective
You come along because I love your face
And I'll admire your expensive taste
And who cares divine intervention
I wanna be praised from a new perspective
But leaving now would be a good idea
So catch me up on getting out of here

-New Perceptive by Panic! At the Disco

Hey there,

I know what I have done is wrong on the previous post is wrong but to tell you all the truth. I had this horrible same dreams for three days straight. I am so much afraid that it may come true. Firstly, I need to talk to Nurul,Denise and Sufi because they really can cheer me up. Secondly, if it comes true, I will not know what others might think of me.

Maybe the more I said it, it might really come true. I think there should be a massage behind my nightmare, that I should take care of myself before it really happens. You never know. I think this is like my first time, I have a horrible nightmare like this because I have at least had aleast never had dreams before or had good dreams rarely.

Today was the first day of the fasting month and I was awfully tired because I wait until 12 am to wish Nell a happy birthday then really woke up around 5 am to have early breakfast then prayers..Then went back to sleep until 8 am.

So I didn't know what I did but I remembered i was looking at Mr Lee's slide on asknlearn and then sleeping again. Then we watched an inspiring movie Knights of South Bronx. Should watch because there was one boy who was so cute. It was about a game of chess.

Then we slept until 6 pm then cleaned and prepare to break fast at 7.15 pm. Really tired when you are fasting because you tend to use up all your energy.

Ciao. Got to sleep early tonight. Then tomorrow complete all my homeworks.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[8:18 PM]

Missing you all day long

blame it on the weather, but i'm a mess
and this february darkness. has me hating everyone
and i know i give you comfort, but this trouble makes me sick
and the longer i lay here, i know it's harder to get up
without you

-part of lyrics, Call it karma by Silverstein.

Okay, i'm also going to talk about my karma today. Well, it seems that some people does not appreciate my effort in helping them. I saved a life today, gave up my seat to the elderly and why don't I get back my good deeds back again. Oh well, I did show a very good example to a senior because when she saw me giving up my seat, she followed my actions.

I think it's the way I seem to see it. Well, the reasons why I gave up my seat on the bus and in the train is well i'm matured and really understand what is it like to be an elderly because firstly, I'm always thankful that both my grandparents are alive and healthy and secondly I can't just see an elderly looking so weak on the bus well, I don't always think of myself, I do think of others around me.

Secondly, I did a great help helping someone in Whitesands. I knew she was about to fall on the escelator, I caught her fall, well if I was not around I knew she would have injure herself and there was some questioning why I didn't catch her fall and I would be blame because of everything. Because she went to the hospital because of me and worst still, the school repetuation will surely go down.

Well, I'm writing this is about how I feel about people today. They are so selfish about themselves that they don't think of helping others. I maybe old fashion but I do have a life and that's to help others. I believe helping others will work because when you help someone because someone will help another someone and the other someone will help anothe someone and so far that the world could be a perfect place to live in.

Well I know that someone stole my pink pilot pen because I know I have more than 11 coloured pilot pen in my pencil case. Well, I know who you are but you can have it because that pilot pen does not belong to you and secondly you are awfully poor. Ya, awfully poor. You know why?
It's because you can't afford a $2.10 pen. Well if you want,save money lar. Or asked your parents. I don't want to reveal your name but I'm sorry this is kind of embarassing but still accept it.

I'm really pissed. You know what? I will buy you a pink pilot pen for your birthday since you can't afford it. Serves you right! Well, and here's a massage to you, doesn't mean I treat you so nicely, doesn't mean you can treat me like a piece of crap. Never heard the term of karma? Ya that's my karma and I'm seriously going to tell in this blog how I can cursed infront and behind your back and I seriously tell you that it's pretty ugly. You know why? You maybe the last person I will cursed and swear and you know why I do this?

I pick my victims so there arh, somemore steal alot things from me. See how much trouble you will faced and don't go asking me taking back my words because firstly you have to gained my trust and secondly, give me reasons why should I take back the word...

Okay.Chiao mad world.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[10:28 PM]

Missing you all day long

You're the next big thing
The next big thing
They're gonna wanna shake your hand
and take a picture with your band
Everyone will shut their mouths
'cause they wanna hear you out
And they're gonna know your name
'cause you're the next...

-The Next Big Thing by FM Static

Heylos people...

I just want to say something but there's really a no offence to. I love making up stories like how Po died. So now let's begin blogging.

I'm like so pissed with blogger right now...can't upload any pictures...Argh! This is so frustrating.

Okay today went to school. Had maths test. Thank god managed to do because I had a great breakfast which made me think of all the formulas or not my mind will be a total BLANK!I would want to Granola Bars to do their part to make me think. After that was Geography, was learning a new topic...Something about water pollution and land pollution...My god,people stopped polluting the earth.

Then was recess, talked abit then gossip then talked about when I was little I put a sanitary pad in a sticker album,and etc. Then had music. I think I was stonning trying to think what Maths will be like later...

I'm so tired...And i'm still writng about my teenage romance book..

LOVE,
Zarifah

[8:31 PM]

Missing you all day long

Am I cranky or what?

Tell me something I don't know,
but your best friend knows

-Keep the change, you filthy animal by all time low

What the hell am I thinking today? Am I seriously angry at myself for being stupid. I think i'm going to have gastric soon and when can I not have PMS. Maybe too much PMS caused me to be in trouble lately.

When to school today. I was just fasting today. Today was a little different because I went to wait for Rachael to pass her, her birthday present which meant friendship to me and it was made by me. It was a scrapbook filled with David Archuleta pictures and positive thoughts. It took me 55 minutes to finish the scrapbook.Sighs. Then we went to the basketball court to take hight and weight. Oh-my-gosh, totally forgotten today I was fasting so talked to Netto why on Earth am I fasting today. It's not a prank. It's a religious thing to restrain yourselves from food and water.

Then we went back to class. Talk to Merissa if she did chapter six research because I told everyone to pass the massage if they never do, I will chased after them. I'm SERIOUS! Then it was history. Today learnt how to do the comparison of the history paper. Then Mr Lee compared to Mr Cheong. Class was like this.

Mr Lee: You know who's Mr Cheong?
Class: Is it the botak-botak teacher?
Mr Lee: Oi, you guys so mean.
Class: It's true what?
Mr Lee: But there's no comparison because Mr Cheong is bald.

Then he asked another question because we were all damn quiet.

Mr Lee: Why are you quiet? Did any teacher scolded you before the lesson?
(Class shakes a no.)

History lesson is like the best lesson because I think that's like the only time I get to laugh with and without a reason. I know it's weird but I love history. People don't forget about the PSE. If you forgotten here. P=> Politics, S=> Social and E=> Economy. Yes that's how you answer with the PEEL method.

Then was science. We had to do the electricity thing. ARGH! I don't want to talk anymore. I want to sleep.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[8:41 PM]

Missing you all day long

And I cried...

I cried because I really don't know why I cried. I guess it was all because of me. I'm a weak girl at her own world.But nevermind. Why do I always think that even I cry I can end up to be really happy. The real answer is friends.

Well today, I'm not going to write anything i'm just going to write how great my friends are and what they do meant to me.

Well, my class. They are pretty awesome but some, I just follow my karma.

Well I don't know really which song I should dedicate to them now but I think I just write what's at my heart.

Jade,Rachael,Franziska,Letitia,Claire,Netto,Charlotte,Emma and Kathleen

Thanks for being there for me. Thanks for all the hug.Thanks for being so protective for me. I know I really could not handle it.All the stress. Wait i think I really got a perrfect song for you guys.

Too much by All time low

I admit, I miss seeing your face, babe
(Seeing your face, babe)
Being alone is starting to take its toll
I'm cold and it's getting old
(Getting old)

I admit
(I admit)
I should've made some changes
(Changes)
We were so smothered in love
We didn't have a chance to come up for air
(For air)

What a waste
Where did the time go?
Where did our minds go?
I don't know
What's this place?
Where did our home go?
We won't know
I don't know

Too much of anything
Is too much
Too much of love
Can be too much
We had too much time
Too much us
So we fought like tomorrow was promised
Too much, too much, too much, too much
Too much, too much, too much, much
Much too much

I admit, I'm still watching the days go by
(Watching the days go by)
Sleeping alone is starting to break me down
It's cold, but I should've known
(Should have known)

I admit
(I admit)
I made a few mistakes, babe
(Mistakes, babe)
We were so caught up in love
[ All Time Low Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
We didn't have a chance to come up for air

What a waste
Where does the time go?
Where did our minds go?
I don't know
What's this place?
Where did my heart go?
We'll never know
I'll never know

Too much of anything
Is too much
Too much of love
Can be too much
We had too much time
Too much us
So we fought like tomorrow was promised
Too much, too much, too much, too much
Too much, too much, too much, too much
Too much, too much, too much, too much
Too much, too much, too much, too much
Much too much

I need to find a reason to feel
Like everything was meant to be let go
Take it slow
'Cause I can't be on my own

Too much of anything
Is too much
(It's just too much)
Too much of love
Can be too much
(It's just too)
We had too much time
Too much us
So we fought like tomorrow was promised
Too much, too much, too much, too much
Too much, too much, too much, too much
Too much, too much, too much, too much
Too much, too much, too much, much
Much too much

Okay that's all..and it's also for Cedrick for cheering me up during music lesson...while I was crying

LOVE,
Zarifah

[8:32 PM]

Missing you all day long

Happy Belated Birthday Singapore!

Wide awake my mistake so predictable.
You were fake. I was great.
Nothing personal.
I'm walking, who's laughing now?
(Who's laughing, who's laughing now?)

-Break your little heart by All time low.

Okay today just cleaned the house and now, my leg is so itchy. So i'm like half writing while scratching my leg. I want to upload a picture on the blog but since there's no exactly nice photo of All time low, Christofer Drew or any the band that I love and do you know it's very sad. So let me talk about how I celebrate my national day yesterday.

Guess what?
I was wearing red. Red baju kurong.There's like a family event to go but I brought my shirt and jeans. Went to that place around 11.00 am while Bibik came to help us clean the house. I was really tired because of the day before so while reading the verse of prayers. I was like sitting down and wanting to sleep. My mum saw me and asked me to sit on the chair instead of the floor. Tired you know.

Then I could not stop my gibrishness with my older brother and uncles. I also played with my cousin who's like 7 years younger than me. Of course, when I talk to her she does not understand certain words. And next year she's going to be Primary one. I teached her how to irritate my older brother and how to be abit spoilt. Paman, if you are reading this, you can blame me a few years later because I taught her how to be spoilt.

Then I had to wait for some people to finish eating then went to atok's house. Atok followed us in the car and showed directions to his house. I think he really need to go to the doctor because he has a bad leg injury. I should have brought him to the doctor yesterday. So when we reached his house, I went to my normal casual clothes and when I reach downstairs paman and bibik zenne along with Iman and Nadra was there. Talked to Paman then spread perfume. He kinda teased me. Hey I smell so I have to spray myself.

Then wait for the cake.The cake finally arrived. Bik Ana, Paman Sazali, Nadia, Nazurah, Bik Siti was there already with the cake. Went to talk to atok while Mummy and the aunties prepare for the cutting of cake. YES! We celebrate Atok and abang's birthday. Eat choc a bloc cake. So delicious. I want more actually but I will grow damn fat.Then had a chat with the aunties and uncles and atok while Daddy went to petroled the car. It was having a 44 percent discount. At Shell. Woah. It took a long time for him to come back.

Still talking. Talked from fake Nenek Keropok to her facebook account to shopping malls to my aunts job to parking the car. My god, adults really changed the topic then suddenly you will be "what on earth are they changing the topic?"

Then we went back home. Bibik was still home. By then, it was already 6.15 pm but since bibik wants to flower the plants at nenek's house. I had to follow to her house then we watered the plants there for about 20 minutes. Then went home to watch the NDP 2009. I found even more interesting compared to my Primary 5 one. Then talked. After NDP, watch Singapore Idol. Very funny. I think it's much better than the last one.

Ya watch suria then went to sleep. Oh ya, Bibik was still awake watching that malay show.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[3:47 PM]

Missing you all day long

"I been playing to much guitar, I've been listening to Jazz. I called so many times I swear she's going mad"

- Trouble by nevershoutnever!

I've been singing like all day long.Since in school and at the airport and now at home.I seriously don't know when to stopped.

Well now i'm home. I can now think properly and let me talk about today.Well there was school in the morning. Wore red and cream three quarters. We listened to alot of songs like my island my home and many more. Then we headed to class. In class there were alot of drama because there wasn't any decorations for the class thing so we had listen to a music video which Mrs Stevenson showed us.Had to answer questions. Well I got one boost chocolate and i'm kinda happy.

Then we were realeased early because of our good conduct. Had ice cream with the girls, girls as in Sufi,Denise and Nurul. After that, we went off straight to Bedok Mrt and then to Changi Airport. Hehe. While on the way there, we saw some hot St Joseph boys. I tell you Denise and I were giggling and whispering so loudly that it was so damn obvious that the hot boy in the braces could hear us. Thank god, we were not wearing our school uniform. The St Joseph boys were looking at us. I tell you, I could not stop looking at the braces boy. Oh my when we reached Tanah Merah. I wanted to fall. I could purposely fall but I knew Denise would be so jealous.

Reached the airport with Denise and Sufi. Sufi wanted to cry because when she opened her present. It was the perfect present she ever wanted.We gave her hug. Well she promised to hug Nurul. Then we went off to the monorial went to terminal 1. Terminal 1 is so boring. There's no shop. I tell you. All there was a bookshop,cakeshop and candyshop. Saw something eye candy for abang. So I bought that thing as a present for abang's birthday.

Then we went to terminal 2 but before that we were still talking about the St Joseph boy with the braces. I tell you if I would have make friends with him I would ask him to teach me E Maths,Science,Geography,Literature and History.Yes all these. I really want him to teach me because firstly St Joseph's boys are like the smartest, higher class then us and have a really good sense of humour.We really took a long walk to the monorail. Hehe. Then we went to Terminal two. We wanted to play a game but really can't find anyone hotter.

Then we went to the bookshop again talked and gossip. Do you know Swensens was like crowded. I could see the queaue from far.Our stomach was growling so we went to Terminal 3 to have lunch at Poppeyes. Do you know there was these two guys who ate for a long time. I tell you I felt like slapping them. They talked so long that we have to sit on the floor to eat.Went to candy empire and the perfume shop because Sufi stained herself so had to spray perfume at her ass. Then we went to Body shop to checked on things.

Then we went down to camwhore with the posters carebears. People were looking but we didn't care because we were advertising care bear. The went home. After that Denise and I ran crazy for the bus. Sufi took 37 while Denise and I took 24. Then I reached home.

Now home so tired. Actually thinking of the braces boy. Braces boy from St Jospeh if you are reading, let's be friend and add me on facebook okay!

LOVE,
Zarifah

[4:16 PM]

Missing you all day long

YAY!! It's finally 300th post! Today very happy and peace to you too!

Okay. I feel like posting two pictures today. So you won't mind because I love Alex Gaskarth too!

Okay today.

Went to school pernormal but today we had to move to the front while Sec 4 and 5 will be sitting at our place for the moment.So Sufi and I talked about some motivational quotings because tomorrow we will be painting one of the school walls.It turned out to be funny because it was abit sick.

Me:So what quotings you want?

Sufi:Science book surely got one.

Me:I left mine in class so I only have my maths textbook.

Sufi: Aiyah! Can paint formulas also can.

Eunice: You crazy arh!

Sufi: Then you got science textbook?

Eunice:Wait arh, I check in my bag.

(Eunice takes out her science textbook and we were flipping the pages just to find a few old man faces.)

Sufi:Put the one how atoms made.

Me:*giggling*

Eunice:Siao.

Sufi: How bout this one.

Eunice:It must be something with school. So uniforms are white.

Sufi:Hmm...Uniforms are white then bikinis are red.

I was just giggling really can't help it. Really can't wait to paint tomorrow.Sighs first was D&T. Mr Ng left us in the class until recess.Eveyone went for recess except for me.I was reading the book that I bought from Sufi. She sold one of her books for 5 dollars. I was also listening to music.

Suddenly there was this chinese head department went in. I took my earpiece out of my ear and quickly put in my bag. Luckily she didn't see with my handphone because she was talking who left their drinks outside the class.

After 25 minutes,woah! Ms Pua came in the classroom and she was talking to me about me not coming for a long time. I freaked out because there was one ear piece in my ear. I was like nodding my head and a big smile. Science started late for us because of the Economics girls were late. So there was one unhappy tick on the class diary.

It was then Maths and then mother tongue.

Want to fast forward it till I was in tuition.

Tuition was fun.Leonard so thick skin saying he's hot.He's not la.Some more he wanna act cute but don't know how to act cute..Stupid.

Chaio.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[6:54 PM]

Missing you all day long

Haiz. Today I will not post any photo but I love All Time Low freak, Forever the sickest freak. And alot. By the way, special thanks to Jessica and Merissa.

I miss all of you alot by the way. There was morning assembly at the festival court. Almost everyone were like "So how are you now? Much better?". I just nodded with a big smile on my face. Talked to Sufi and Denise.Passed Nurul her book which I bought for her at Times. Denise gave me a big warm hug. I missed hugging her.

Then went to give the pencil case to Letitia. She thanked me. It was then morning assembly. Mrs Stevenson was there. I gave her my mc(s). And todays morning assembly was weird because Miss Martens was making us remember who she and Mrs Joseph was. Of course, all of us remembered because she's was like the neighbourhood friendliest neighbour but I say the school friendliest principle.

Then had to went back to class. Gossip with Merissa. It was so funny gossiping with her. I remember her saying something like this.

Merissa: Zarifah, why are you smiling?
Me: I like to smile! I'm smiling because i'm back in school. You don't think i'm smiling because of something, right?
Merissa: Smiling possibly that you can see him right?
Me: Yar yar yar. Whatever.

Had Geography but Ms Tan wasn't here. Yes! I finally can relaxed abit but there was work to do but I did fast so that I could finished up my own personal things.Then was mother tongue.Talk and do work. We had the last fifteen minutes to ourselves. Samantha was talking to me about...hmm..What were talking about. Seems that I can't remember what was it.Sorry.

Then Drama. Had some acting to do. Our first group was the first to act in the the How Animals Got their shape. Finally I could act solo as Rachael acted as a kangroo.Ah,don't need to act two animals at one time.

Then went recess. Had hot dog and hot milo. I talked to Rachael and Regine and Rasmi too. I was eating damn slowly. Then Florence came sitting next to me. She talked to me but seriously I don't give a damn because I had a headache and was thinking about my god brother, Kor Kor Cedrick of why he was being so stupid, giving up halfway.

Then went back to class. Had Literature. Was doing poems and had a chance to listen to Weightless by All time low. I lovelovelove the song! Had to write the lyrics down. I need Rachael's help and she helped and I was asking what does the song tell you because seriously, I don't know.

And then, English! Sighs. Was falling asleep but tried to keep awake. Haha. English was fun. Watched Mulan, The Village and many more. While watching the middle part of The Village screamed and I was laughing at them. C'mon guys. The movie is really funny. What's so scary.

Then went to the coffee shop with Denise and Sufi. Had prata and teh tarik. We were planning on what to do for Sufi's early present and the painting. I can't wait to paint the wall. Seriously. Doing it with Nurul,Denise,Sufi,Lynett and who? Oh it's me.

Had cca. Fun alot of things. Had alot of things done. I was excited during creative comp. Want to do again with my best friend, Denise but if Nurul had joined Angklung. I bet we wil have alot of fun doing things together. Bestfriendsforever Nurul,Denise and Sufi!

Sighs what a day! Gotta update the cca blog.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[7:18 PM]

Missing you all day long

Sighs. I'm too tired of what happen yesterday. Went ti Bugis then came to Tampines.It's like the last pit stop and then went back home to watch Marley & Me.

I think today I just give a song dedication today.

I love The Maine so today's song dedication is:

Girls Do What They Want
she's 18 and a beauty queen (a beauty queen)
she makes the boys feel so weak (so weak)
it's all for her or none at all
she'll pick you up just to watch you fall
it's her hands on my hips, I can't escape 'em
it's that mouth and those lips, try not to taste 'em

that's just the way things are
and the way they'll always be

girls do what they want (whoa... whoa...)
boys do what they can

she's 18 and a beauty queen
she's figured out all the boys like me
head to toe, you know she's dressed to kill (dressed to kill)
and she could the way she's lookin' at me
it's her face and those eyes, I can't escape 'em
it's that mouth and those lies, try not to taste 'em

that's just the way things are
and the way they'll always be

girls do what they want (whoa... whoa...)
boys do what they can

that's just the way things are (that's just the way things are)
because the boys are feelin' jealous
and it just doesn't make any sense
go on and tell 'em
why the girls are into fellas
that toss 'em to the side in the end
and you know that all the
the boys are fallin' in love
with girls who don't know what's up
I think we've all had enough of this nowthese kids are talkin' bout love
I think we've all had enough
we've had enough of this now

girls do what they want (whoa... whoa...)
boys do what they can

Ya. I dedicate this songs to all the single ladies. Well actually why didn't I upload their photo! Nah, nevermind I'm just crazy about Christofer.Well actually I'm trying to write my own personal teenage romance book but I think I will publish it after 10 years later.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[11:53 AM]

Missing you all day long