BLOW ME AWAY

♥Monday, September 28, 2009

What a waste
Where did the time go?
Where did our minds go?
I don't know
What's this place?
Where did our home go?
We won't know
I don't know

Too much of anything
Is too much
Too much of love
Can be too much
We had too much time
Too much us
So we fought like tomorrow was promised
Too much, too much, too much, too much
Too much, too much, too much, much
Much too much

-Too much by All time low

Love can be forced and you can't just pay the price for love because it just comes naturally, well today my topic will be Love is really hard. I think I got this inspiration from my freakiest dream last night. While I was sleeping, feeling happy because Lewis Hamilton won.

Akmal is just so stup-stupid of course. Well, freeloader. Well, where was I, oh ya. Freakiest dream, I think it will not happen if I can't stopped thinking about it so much, well last night I was dreaming that....

I was married at a very young age to someone who is very handsome. Not only handsome but very charming. Although you think it's okay what. It isn't to tell you the truth, I wasn't happy with what I was because firstly, the marriage was a forced. There was no intention for marrying a man like that because I wanted to study. I looked myself at the mirror. As I thought to myself, "who the hell is this girl? why is she crying?" As I looked deeper and deeper as close as I could. I realised it was me.

Well that did not end. I was wearing the traditional malay wedding costume. I realised that the driver was the one whom I was marrying. He looks in his early twenties. He had a brilliant smile, he looked intelligent and his face, it looks like I have seen him before, but where? He looked Japanese although it's impossible. He spoke in malay when I thought it was really imposible. He was also standing 5'10 feet tall.

As we got out of the car. My mum was holding my hand with tears in her eyes. I did cry too. I just realised that the man had just asked for blessings and how stupid could they accept a man whom I don't know. Well I think it could be a family friend's son. That's what I thought.

Well when I thought to myself. Why am I marrying this man? What's wrong with me? Well, to me it was a total nightmare. First, I don't even this man, secondly, I'm not in love with him and lastly, why did my parents agreed.

Well that's when I woke up. It was then 5.35 am. And got ready for school. Thank god, I thought to myself it was just a dream. It will surely not happen if I don't think too much about it. Well that's all. Love is really hard to accept it that's all I just got to say.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[5:08 PM]

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