BLOW ME AWAY

♥Friday, October 30, 2009

If it's gonna be rainy day
There's nothing you can do to make it change
We can pray for sunny weather
But that won't stop the rain
Feeling like you got no place to run
I can be your shelther 'till it's done
We can make this last forever
So please don't stop the rain

-Please don't stop the rain by James Morrison

Don't give up!

Well this massage is for especially you. Yes, you! It's sincerely from my heart and please read it well.

My dear class 2/2 2009.

I know we are going to be in seperate classes but let's us work really hard for the next year and achieve our targets. I hope you would be really happy in which ever class you will be in because I'll be there for you. I know times will be hard as our beloved form teacher, Mrs Stevenson will be leaving us soon. Let's keep her in our prayers so that she could do well in St Gabriel's Secondary and be happy there. Let's work hard to make her happy. Well, as you could see the picture I posted its stated there, Don't give up! So let's do our best!

Well this massage is for you, yes you know who you are,

Well you treat my form teacher well okay? If you don't I give you that roaches for your birthday then you know! Well, since you're a bad influence of the other secondary students let me guess, you retain for another year. How many stupid sms I already sent to you to ask you to study hard and study! Don't bother somemore, I kill ya!

Well that's all , everyone!

So don't give up!

LOVE,
Zarifah

[8:46 PM]

Missing you all day long

So,so,so tell me where do we go
There is a burning inside of my soul, and it shows
We all want something more
than just a simple life
And hey,so give me something to say
I wanted nothing and I gave it all away
We all want something more
than just a simple life

Simple Life by My Favorite Highway

Okay this editted today, Tuesday. So I know it's states on monday but who cares. Well I want to say that yesterday was my first time going inline skating.

First time you know. I know that the uncle gives us $6 at pasir ris inline skating so whoever wants to go tell me.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[8:17 PM]

Missing you all day long

Sun rays come down as seen when they hit the ground,
Children spinning around till they fall down down down.
I wait for you: it's been two hours now,
You're still somewhere in town,
Your dinners getting cold.
I rest my case you are always this late,
And you know how much I hate waiting around 'round 'round,

-Bitter Heart by Zee Avi

Yes! Yesterday we went to Kukup, Johor Bahru. Well I woke up at 5 am. Really early in the morning. I tell you, my eyes were looking so pissed and I really had to forced myself to wake up really early. So bathe then packed my bag to go to school.

Well, by the time I was going to school, had banana and milo in atok's car. In school, woah! Everyone in my class were wearing jeans or track pants except for me, the matching bermudas which really matched with my camp tshirt. Teachers had to take our attendence then Mr Ramlee give us a short briefing. So it was like blah blah blah. Then suddenly he said something about those passport before 6 months. Poor Regine, Samantha and Sherilyn.... Had to go to the front to see Mr Lee and Mr Lee told them to take a risk. So I partner with Regine. Well our bus colour was pink. The teachers that were in the bus were Cikgu Nora, Mr Roland and Mdm Pey.

So Regine and I sat on the bus together. Sitting and talking. I was like talking about some music and began singing. Sorry I know my voice sucks so bear with it. Then we finally reached the Singapore customs. Luckily it was fast for me because mine was the new one so it took a shorter time. And then had to wait for Regine. I was praying really hard that she would be able to get into malaysia. Then within in 5 minutes we reached the malaysian customs. So Regine was able to go through. Sighs. Had to wait for like ten minutes for everyone. Then finally we go for breakfast. It was like 8.45 am. Everyone was awake. The breakfast was like a buffet. I was expecting something like going to a coffeeshop.

Had mee and teh tarik for breakfast. The teh tarik taste so good. Yupe then was picture time. I swear my legs were burning up. First it was bermudas then I never wear sun block so was asking for sunblock. Thank god, Regine had it. Almost everyone took like a million pictures. Don't believe check facebook.

Went to the pineapple farm. It took us forty-five minutes. The tour guide, Adeline was like talking about palm trees and more palm trees. What I realised about malaysia is almost every 3km it has one or two. Sometimes it's even shorter than that distance.Then we were at the pineapple muzium. Do you know the pineapple leaves can be used for clothings too? Okay now you know. Then explore the muzium but we were not even reading the things just enjoying oursleves taking picture.

Went to Fish Farm that took us 1 hour 30 minutes to get there. Explore the area. Then came the most frightening thing, getting on the boat. I am not a person who takes boat. Well on the boat itself I was sea sick. Everytime it moves, tend to burp alot. Wanted to puke but couldn't puke at all. Thank god there were people looking after me. Thank You! Thank You! Then bought lots of keropok. Not me but my friends. Wah, they all became the next top mak cik keropok.

Ya took a tour around the mangrove swamp. Was abit abit drowsy then it was the village walk. Bought a lot of water for myself. Sighs. Then taste some jelly. Delicious. Wow! The weather was hot like hell. I felt the earth moving, I swear. It was me actually. Then had lunch. Sea food! Had chilli crab, prawns, vegetable, sweet and sour fish with rice. Nice. Delicious. Oh my was eating with a few people including Mr Roland and Mdm Pey. Denise! Erm...really she's going to get that from me! Ya they were calling Mr Lee to the table. And I was like avoiding the table.

Worst still was when Mr Roland was teasing me. I wanted to laugh. I felt so embarassed. Urgh! Then went shopping. Mr Roland, big bully!

Went to the chocolate factory which took us another 2 hours. By then it was like 4.45 pm. Watching knowing. Not even scary at all. Took a toilet break and bought two boxes of chocolate. There Mr Roland was teasing me again. Then we went back home. There was like a million of traffic jam everywhere but really had a great time!

LOVE,
Zarifah

[2:24 PM]

Missing you all day long

You change you're mind,
Like a girl, change her clothes
Ya you,
PMS like a bitch,
I would know,
And you over think, always speak cryptically
I should know that you're no good for me

-Hot N Cold by Katy Perry

Simple Enough.

There a few new groups that we have not heard today. Well, I myself as an indie song lover loves all these unknown band from United States where we asians, have not heard of them before. Well, not all of them know. I love them so much.

Well, recently today I found bands like these one above, My Favourite Highway and many more. Well I find alot of things interesting. Well now abang is just recommanding me some songs and bands. Well about My Favourite Highway. Wow! The guitarist is hot!

Well, as you know i'm more of a mainstream and indie person. So recently, almost all my blog post has songs from an indie band. Well listen to Nevershoutnever, Christofer Drew writes healing songs that are meant for broken hearted people like me. Well I've been listening again and again. Well it never stops.

Well yesterday, I thought everything will not be okay but it turns out evrything went well. I wad about to cry while singing Happy Birthday to Nadiah. Well, how on earth am I going to face the councellor. I don't like my school councellor. Well, maybe a teacher would be fine. Wait how many times I have said it already.

The thing is...
I don't like crying. Like who likes crying. I wish not to cry but there would still be tears. My reactions when I saw the other part of the family was WOW! They are really strong. They are the closest to him but why am I still the weakest. I guess the only thing is can't infect accept it or it takes time after time.

I really don't want to ruin my friendship with anyone with the thing going. It's kind of sad but my friends are the ones that helped me forget about him. Well, home is not the safest thing when I'm alone. I just need a friend.

My god,
Who the hell threw the beach ball into the soccer pitch? Like who would do that man, Wait,crazy man! Crazy man! Argh! If I find that liverpool supporter for making liverpool lose....I'm going to kill him. Well, gotta go. Bye!

LOVE,
Zarifah

[8:36 PM]

Missing you all day long

I candy coat and cover everything
but i'm still hiding underneath,
It's been a long time,
It's been a long time
A thousand faces looking up at me
hands pointing out to the ceiling
Oh what a feeling

I've got friends in highly low places
I'm standing on post,and I'm posted up
can't afford to lose them
I'll go inside when I wanna party
Grab a girl and dance(don't touch me)

-Woah Oh by Forever the sickest Kids

Well this is an editted one. So the truth is I love my friends, yes I really do. Sometimes I just do have to lie to them for a cause. It's not because I hate them but it's just because I have my reasons to lie.

Well, my friends....

My friends are the most supportive, heart-warming and many better qualities people I know. I do love them. Well, on Friday we went to the library and had a great time there. They did really understand how I feel when I see mats. Well You guys, know I HATE 'EM!

Now I just want to thank Denise for her message.

Well it's supposed to be private but I don't feel like sharing it because of some reason. But I love her so much! Well she was supportive and really a sweet heart. I did cry on Friday night because I'm afraid to face the other side of my family so I do need moral support. As you know what happend to me.

Well, then came my god brothers. Heh. Really funny. Abang Adi really made me laugh that night then I feel much better now.

Well so tired.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[4:18 PM]

Missing you all day long

Sir,Shake my hand,

It's a pleasure to meet you,

I'm not trying to waste your time,

My name is Miserable&Full of Regret

But I'm trying to change that line

Up in my head are all the times that I've seen you

And wished that you were dead

But one by one, they turn and point at me

Until I wish my dismis instead

-Brighter Lights by HeyHiHello!

Well i'm totally pissed what do you expect me to say, almost fainting in an exam room was a bad thing. F**k you! Seriously! Man, what is wrong with me? Am I falling ill? Well it's good that i'm falling ill.Hopefully, die and rest in peace so that no one would not hear any complains from me. And see me suffer.

I suffer alot. But it's all karma. It's just that everyone is having karmas. Mostly evil karmas. I want my good karma back. Anyone? Anyone?

Well, what in the world are adults playing a role to teach their children? Learnt how to embarrased themselves? Teach a new slang everyday? Whistle across the road when they see a girl?

Well, the truth is this is what happened to me today. Well, group of mats whistled across the road at me while pointing at me. Who is not pissed? Am I the only one piss. Yes I think i'm the only one pissed.Very pissed.

I don't know what's wrong but this has turned into a mad world. Do I look attractive that the mats at Tampines looks at me and Nurul? Huh? what's your problem. You want to settle it. Let's settle it then.

I'm not happy today. So tomorrow don't ask what happen yesterday or on Thursday.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[7:32 PM]

Missing you all day long

Baby if they ask me.
I would say I don't even know your name.
And when they ask me:Does it change?
No it don't change a thing.
'Cause it's something about the way you love me.
And it's something about the way you know me.
That I can't explain enough.

There's just something about our future love, future love, future love.
There's just something about afuture love, future love, future love

-Future Love by Varsity Fanclub

Finally exams tomorrow. Today met a new friend. Dinah! She's actually nice. Alot in common.Hehe.Well actually that's not what i'm looking for a friendship. It's just basically knowing one another.Well can't think at the moment because i'm really too tired. Well there are alot of people. I mean students in the house right now. They will be taking their 'O' levels anytime soon. So, my younger brother and I are the youngest in the house currently.

My head is spinning. History. Well tried to memorize the book like what I did when I was in Sec 1 but could not absorb any detail. Not all but managed to absorb some of it. Zarifah what the hell are you doing? Seriously.Maybe I don't know.

Argh! So stressed. It's like me saying Argh! Everyone's going to die. My god, think positive. Well today talking to Dinah was so much fun. She love Ed. I love Chase. She recommanded me songs too.She's like an indie person like me.Well, this morning been twittering. Well I asked a stupid question to myself about Jayk from Varsity Fanclub. Has he ever remove his cap before like? No not that one. Have he ever wash his hair before because almost everywhere it's him and his cap? Well seriously for crying out loud!

History tomorrow

Don't give SHIT!
S-Show
I-Inform(I guess)
T-Tell

Remember PSE
P-Political
S-Social
E-Economy

Remember about the tones
Positive and negative tone.

And the 4 As.

Author,audience,action words and achieve.

Give CIP!
Convience
Influence
Persuade

Remember okay!

Lots of love,
your history rep!

All the best!

LOVE,
Zarifah

[7:20 PM]

Missing you all day long

This city, so pretty
Under the moonlit skies, we'll be hanging like a cigarette
So stunning, start running
Tonight's like a knife, would you cut me with your kiss?
I believe, red lips, you're unbelievable
Can't miss this chance to take you out, here's my invitation

Hello Brooklyn, hey LA
Take the streets all night
Cause we sleep all day
When the world comes crashing down
Who's ready to party?
Hello Brooklyn, hey LA
Coast to coast
I'll take you down in flames
Let the good times roll
We can let go
Everybody knows there's a party at the end of the world

Hello Brooklyn by All time Low

Well, today was roughly a long day but well today was much better than yesterday than last two days. Well, there's PSLE, End Of year exams and then N levels. Well how stress are teachers now?

Well I really don't know. Well, now trying to relax my mind so listening to All Time Low song. Well actually my favourite is actually, toxic valentine, keep the change,you filthy animal and break your heart...Well the others are quite okay.

Today was okay. Almost everyone went to school except for Jade. Oh my, Jade how are you feeling? Much better? Well I guess we all are going to die for history, you know why?
No offence but Ramlee can't teach us at all. I mean, he only show slides. But. All of you should give him at least a chance. Who knows the passers for History will increase in our class.

Well, poppin' champagne right now! Stop following me down. Well. The truth is I know there will be like those smart ones like Michelle will pass the exams. Well, I'm actually confident with my maths paper but I really don't quite know about the science and geography. I think this whole week, I will be freaking out. Sighs. Next week will be the most busiest week for me. With the exams and etc. Sighs, I have been studying alone. All alone at the multi purpose hall. Quiet but not that quiet. I do need a condusive place to study.

New perspective in my ways of studying. There should be at least music. Good music. Mostly my favourites. Indie. Then there should be no people in the same room as me. No big groups because I will get too distracted. But not too lonely because I will get distracted by my own distraction.

The places I will be studying will be(maybe):
Airport(too peaceful except for the weekends)
Multi-purpose hall( Too spooky to study there at least very convience but sometimes resident tend to go in and out which makes it too irritated)
School(Quite okay but will be distracted by the facilities there)

I think I will study at my tuition teacher's house. Why? When?

Much more peaceful when the babies are sleeping. Monday,Wednesday and Thursday. From 12.00 pm to 5.30 pm. Well that's much better than can relax after Friday! Oh my got nothing in mind. Like where to go. Nevermind, I only booked during November. Wait, I think I got plans. Okay see first. Study First. S-stop mourning! Can't stop at all.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[10:56 PM]

Missing you all day long

Tell me that you love me and it'll be alright.
Are you thinking of me?
Just come to me tonight
You know I need you
Just like you need me
Can't stop, won't stop, I must be dreaming.
Can't stop, won't stop, I must be dreaming.

-I Must Be Dreaming by The Maine

Mad as a hatter.

Well people, i'm not in a relationship, I don't like everyone right now and I just love my friends. All my guy friends are brotherly-sisterly love, not more than that. Well not all of them. Most of them are just friends. Why do people get the wrong perception. I'm totally pissed okay, with all this pms and s-stupid St Pats thing. I'm not in love. No let me make it straight, I don't like anyone right now.

Well, i'm now in this pre-mature stage again, well I do need to study and i'm not interested in anyone right now. Well this message goes to you-know-who-you-are. Well, I got lots of celebrity crushes so just to make it straight. I'M SINGLE BUT NOT AVAILABLE! Better.

Okay now back to me.

Well, sighs, I have ask myself to keep calmed but the truth i'm not. Still crying alone. All alone. Maybe my mind was right, that I should have gone to my grandma's house. So the truth is I've been crying while studying.

I just need to be myself. I don't feel like going out anymore. What I meant was with my primary school friends because my life now has this new perceptive with all this secondary friends. I know how much I miss primary school friends. But that's how I feel right now. I feel like I was completely being used last time. When the time, I was so stupid, young and guilty.

So what? Well, let's not talked more about primary school. Well, Nurul was just sms me. Saying to get over it. "Well, honestly Nurul, I can't get over it? It may take a year. You're my bestfriend, you can help me right?"

Well now what, whose not very tired like. I've been studying like mad that I really can't remember how I got to my grandparent's house. I will sms my cousin later to see if I went home with him. I hope it was really him.

Why,oh why? Everytime i'm alone, all I think was him. I will put him in my prayers. He's gone. I don't know I feel right now. But to tell you the truth, there is crappy feelings right now. Painful. Hurt and etc. Well let's just concentrate on exams then after that can cry as long as I want.

Dear readers,

I want to tell the truth.
The truth is I can't be alone. I need a friend to be with me.
It's hard to get over it. Sometimes I feel like school is the safest area for me.
I can't feel anything of happiness right now while writing these.
Well, life sucks right now and I really admit it.
I need to consult an adult right now. Maybe a teacher would be fine.
Well, I just need a hug from everyone.

Loves,
Zarifah

LOVE,
Zarifah

[7:00 PM]

Missing you all day long

So now you knoooooooooow
Don’t hang up the phooooooooone
I wish I was at hooooooooome
I know its way too late,
But Happy Birthday

Yeah yeah whoa
I know you hate me
Yeah yeah whoa
Well I miss you too
Yeah yeah I know
I know it’s kinda late
But happy birthday

-Happy Birthday by The click five

Hey guys! It's late but nevermind. I'm having PMS today. Oh-my god. Seriously. I didn't know how I end up sleeping on my grandma's sofa and lost my socks and my hair such in a mess. Who in the world helped me sms my best friend..

I'm turned on by the tabloids. I could remember myself waking up and my grandfather said this to me " I thought you were at home." Man what really happened to me after school. I remember myself going to school. I went back home,right? Right?

Did someone put something on me? Like seriously did someone crushed a pill into my drink or something. Well whoever was with me from 2.15 pm to 6 pm has to tell me what happen.

I'm still having headache and I do feel so sick...Really sick. Oh my, what happened to the mosque until it got on fire.

Well here goes my unanswered question. Well good luck everyone.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[7:39 PM]

Missing you all day long

The temperature seldom rises
Past that wintry thermometer line
Now I'm tempted to travel to your state
Just to steal some sunshine
But if ever you come back with me
And turn my gray skies a bright blue
I'd feel right at home to hold your hand
And chase the clouds with you

By HeyHiHello!-Don't Quit! Not Quite!

Hey Peeps! It has been along time since I have not been blogging.Argh! Dinosaur Years! Well now is the exam period and been busy with certain stuffs....Well I do have a song dedication for all of ya! And, oh! I found a new band. Local band from New York! The band is called HeyHiHello! Just listen to it on youtube and you may love it!

You know, it's a cloudy day here,
Spring will be well worth the wait.
I'll be sure to greet the the sunshine to,
The frozen buckeye state.

Along with the warmer weather,
I thank you with all my heart.
After all, the coldest weathers,
Have torn it apart.

You and I, well,
We could be just fine,
ooh-whoa.
If only I knew you had the time, ooh-whoa.
The temperature seldom rises,
Past that wintry thermometer line.
Now I'm tempted to travel to your state,
Just to steal some sunshine.
But if ever you come back with me,
And turn my gray skies into a bright blue.
I'll feel right at home to hold your hand,
And chase the clouds with...you and I,

well,
We could be just fine,
ooh-whoa.
If only I knew you had the time, ooh-whoa.
I'll fall asleep, that's right.
I'll fall asleep tonight.
With nothing on my mind,
Except for the sunlight.
I'll fall asleep, that's right.
I'll fall asleep tonight.

With nothing on my mind,
Except for the sunlight.
You and I, well,
We could be just fine.
If only I knew you had the time, ooh-whoa.

You and I, well, We could be just fine, ooh-whoa.
If only I knew you had the time, ooh-whoa.
I'll fall asleep, that's right.
I'll fall asleep tonight.
With nothing on my mind,
Except for the sunlight.

Okay that's all it from the same song lyric up there^

LOVE,
Zarifah

[6:37 PM]

Missing you all day long