I know I have not update for a long time. Now i'm going to write a list of what I have not said this week.
1. Have not said "I love you" to anyone yet. 2. Haven't hug a single person yet. 3. Did not scream at the top of my voice. 4. Never wink
This are the few things. I know tonight was a great night but deep deep in my heart I do really want to say something. I want to scream it out. I want to go to the beach so that I could scream it out loud. So here it's what I do want to say.
When can I see you again? Seriously again! I do miss you really badly. I really do! Since you're gone my life is half empty. What happen to the nights when you pay me a visit silently? When I can't see you but I do feel you? Stroking my hair?(for greatgrandma) Holding my hand? (for uncle)
I really can't say it right now because the way they love me, it just keeps me going. I do want to say I love them but I couldn't just lost at words. Sometimes, I think of ending my life but think about others who do care for me.
I wish those people were really around. I do miss them. Sometimes it is really painful just to sleep and wake up. Whenever I wake up, I will start thinking who will be the next one to go to the after life. And when I go to sleep, I always think what happens if I close my eyes, I would not know what will happen next.
My friends
Smiles
Cute people
Bestiest!
All time low
Panic At the Disco
FTSK!
Nevershoutnever
The downtown fiction
My guitar,Ryro
My carebear,Danny!
♥*TOOTS*
Aliff Aziz
Sluts
Biatch
To be jealous
Peverts
♥Leave a massage here
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♥Simple wishes
01-Someone
02-Pass my EOY exams
03-a new friend for my carebear
04-meeting people from other countries
05-being a personal tourguide to The downtown fiction and more!
06-Loving alot of people even more(fufilled already but still continue)
07-An Ipod Nano
08-Working for MTV Asia or 98.7 fm in the future
09-A new phone(fufilled already)
Hey peeps.
Name:Zarifah Aliah Bte Zulkifli
