♥Thursday, January 7, 2010

I don't need anyone else,it's only you
When you ask it again, it's only you
Even if you have another love
I can't forget you,I can't turn back around
Oh~
The moment my eyes began to burn
The moment my hurt was captured by you
I have no regret, I choose you
That's right it's you

It's you by Super Junior English translation

I'm here and ready to let out my emotions that I've been keeping for the whole month. I can't do anything but smile how much it really hurts me alot. I wish people could understand me. It's not that, I just don't want you guys to be worried about me. I totally give up.

Today, I'm going to talk about today. That's what I could say. Maye not. Urging to cry infront of my tuition teachers that day was really horrible. I just wish I could just give up my own life and when I do it. I make sure that I make the right choice. I'm just emotional these days pretending not to be emotional.

Ladies and gentlemen, I've been wanting to tell you this but really afraid to tell you guys these. I do need to see a doctor because I do have reasons with myself. Very bad reasons. I think I do have bipolar disorder. Not that, i do have symptoms that I don't dare to admit to my parents. I had this since then.I just need help.

Why do I believe a small little talking bear? I asked my mum so that I could be okay. But I really cry everytime when the bear talks to me.

And...and...I will try to be normal...hold on just need to close my eyes for awhile. It helps but it will return later somewhere at anther night or maybe a few hours.

Dear everyone,

I'm not writing a sucidal note or something,
I just want to let you guys really know what I have been going through
I promise I will be fine really soon.
I know I have said this a million times but I promise I be really okay.
I am not an open book now a days because I don't you to be worried about me.
When I'm at the highest point of a building, I don't think of jumping down, I am only seeing light. I also have thought that my late uncle and late great grandmother would visit me every night like last time, I guessed I was wrong. It was just me.

Love,
Zarifah

Okay that's all.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[8:10 PM]

Missing you all day long


♥biography

Photobucket Name:Zarifah Aliah Bte Zulkifli
School: SACSS
Birthday: 8 April
email/msn: queensquickynholly@yahoo.com.sg, zarifahaliah@hotmail.com
♥Tunings


MusicPlaylist
Music Playlist at MixPod.com



♥Adore

My friends
Smiles
Cute people
Bestiest!
All time low
Panic At the Disco
FTSK!
Nevershoutnever
The downtown fiction
My guitar,Ryro
My carebear,Danny!


♥*TOOTS*

Aliff Aziz
Sluts
Biatch
To be jealous
Peverts


♥Leave a massage here

hello. recommended http://www.cbox.ws .


♥Simple wishes

01-Someone
02-Pass my EOY exams
03-a new friend for my carebear
04-meeting people from other countries
05-being a personal tourguide to The downtown fiction and more!
06-Loving alot of people even more(fufilled already but still continue)
07-An Ipod Nano
08-Working for MTV Asia or 98.7 fm in the future
09-A new phone(fufilled already)



♥buddies

Zarifah's other blog
2/2 '09♥
SAC Angklung Band♥
Letitia
Jade
Mama
Amrun,Nana and Jeffri
Charlotte
Merissa
Emma
Elleyana
Florence
Ms. Sonia...the teacher
Namira
Sherilyn
Rachael
Nell
Mavis
Regine
Danielle
Benjamin
Fazerah
Syafiah
Eleanor
Claire
Priscilla
Pei Ling
Kimberly
Ngo Laam
Angelica



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  • ♥thanks

    by (C)runaway-now
    images: I II III IV V
    brushes: I II
    image edited from Photoshop CS2
    i told you NOT to rip, or i`ll come after you with a nuclear bomb.