BLOW ME AWAY

♥Thursday, March 25, 2010

Don't be afraid, I can hear your heart beating (Shh!)
Just stand behind at watch me
Burning, it begins, and finally, Game Set
Be flexible, As Usual It's Mine
It's Mine This Is Mine This Is Mine

Lupin by KARA

I feel like doing a song dedication today. So today's song will be *Drums rolling*, Happy by Nevershoutnever! Well, this goes to all my friends.

You make me happy
Whether you know it or not
We should be happy
That's what I said from the start
I am so happy
Knowing you are the one that I want for the rest of my days.
For the rest of my days.
Yeah all of my days.

You're lookin' so cool
You're lookin' so fly
I can't deny that when
I'm staring you down and dead in the eye
I wanna try to be the person you want
the person you need
it's hard to conceive
that somebody like you could be
with someone like me

I'm happy knowing that you are mine
The grass is greener on the other side
The more I think, the more I wish
That we could lay here for hours and just reminisce.

ooh, ooh.

You're looking so fresh
It's catching my eye!
Why, oh why did I not see this before
The girl I adore was right in front of me
And now I'll take a step back and look in your eye
And ask why it took so long to see
we're meant to be.

I'm happy knowing that you are mine
The grass is greener on the other side
The more I think, the more I wish
That we could lay here for hours and just reminisce.

on the good, the bad, the ugly
The smiles, the laughs, the funny
All the things we put each other through
It's for you, for you, for you!

You make me happy
Whether you know it or not
We should be happy
That's what I said from the start
I am so happy
Knowing you are the one that I want for the rest of my days.
For the rest of my days.

I'm happy knowing that you are mine
The grass is greener on the other side
The more I think, the more I wish
That we could lay here for hours and just reminisce.

ooh, ooh.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[6:31 PM]

Missing you all day long

Shut up and Listen

I don't want to cry~Oh~Ah
My heart was cut deep and cast aside
I'm so sick of this headache
Even if I fill up and empty it again
What was never happen will never happen

Jojo by Shinee Lyrics

Seriously I do miss you alot. This bottom of the heart thing is really painful. I have ever been lectured by my grandma recently. It's about me wanting not to get married because my ideal guy is hypocrypt.Seriously, he is.

But I do miss someone alot. I want to cry now but I feel so helpless when I cry. My parents promised me one thing. I want that one thing really badly. I just want to go to Ubin to relieved my stress and to the malay cemetry. Just a late goodbye.

The promises that I promise myself is to help myself before others because I need the help of myself first then to others. I know you need help but I will try to help you.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[2:12 PM]

Missing you all day long

I will not cry infront of youNow that you have left me,only you are living well
What kind of situation is this, I'm really exhausted
Not even a phonecall from you
You're.So.Mean
My head is spinning spinning

-Bingeul Bingeul(Round and Round) by Ukiss

I'm really tired. I don't know for once I don't want to touch the piece of paper that Ms Ong gave us. It's due tomorrow.Sighs. I feel like crying sometimes because I do control myself from not crying.

The situation is actually worse.

I'm losing my temper at pills, friends, parents and many more. Sometimes, I do admit that I open the window grill because I hate myself. There some point that I feel like crying infront of the teachers. I don't want to give up.

I'm writing music. Music about what i'm going through now. I feel like jumping and starving myself sometimes. As grandpa always says that life must go on. Right now, I do want to cry. Another death. I'm not allowed to go. This the person I barely know. But the point now, world crisis. It's a heart pain.

I'm guilty for not being truthful. I always think that i'm not truthful. I'm hypocrypt sometimes. Just like the person I like for 10 years. I always think that you are very religious but since I saw your facebook photos. No, I don't want to talk to you. I just think that you are not what you are infront of my grandmother. I deserve someone better. I take back the words that I said to my mom, brothers. Yes.

Music. You keep me alive until now. Allah, you too.

Ngo Laam, Merissa.

I do feel like like a big baby.I hate what I am going through. It all has misery in it. I just want to say I love you guys. Thank you.

My temper is up again. Okay gottago.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[2:19 PM]

Missing you all day long