BLOW ME AWAY

♥Sunday, March 7, 2010

I will not cry infront of youNow that you have left me,only you are living well
What kind of situation is this, I'm really exhausted
Not even a phonecall from you
You're.So.Mean
My head is spinning spinning

-Bingeul Bingeul(Round and Round) by Ukiss

I'm really tired. I don't know for once I don't want to touch the piece of paper that Ms Ong gave us. It's due tomorrow.Sighs. I feel like crying sometimes because I do control myself from not crying.

The situation is actually worse.

I'm losing my temper at pills, friends, parents and many more. Sometimes, I do admit that I open the window grill because I hate myself. There some point that I feel like crying infront of the teachers. I don't want to give up.

I'm writing music. Music about what i'm going through now. I feel like jumping and starving myself sometimes. As grandpa always says that life must go on. Right now, I do want to cry. Another death. I'm not allowed to go. This the person I barely know. But the point now, world crisis. It's a heart pain.

I'm guilty for not being truthful. I always think that i'm not truthful. I'm hypocrypt sometimes. Just like the person I like for 10 years. I always think that you are very religious but since I saw your facebook photos. No, I don't want to talk to you. I just think that you are not what you are infront of my grandmother. I deserve someone better. I take back the words that I said to my mom, brothers. Yes.

Music. You keep me alive until now. Allah, you too.

Ngo Laam, Merissa.

I do feel like like a big baby.I hate what I am going through. It all has misery in it. I just want to say I love you guys. Thank you.

My temper is up again. Okay gottago.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[2:19 PM]

Missing you all day long