BLOW ME AWAY

♥Sunday, August 29, 2010

Yeah Listen to this
Even though darkness wraps around me
Even though I can't see one inch before me because it's so dark
The hurt heart heart heart of hers that got wounded
I will wrap around I promise I'm gonna be down

Her that is getting tired of the repeated times
If you have no place to lean then come and lean on me
For you we will be together call us
Start again right now

-One Better Day By Mblaq

Okay seriously I'm freakingly tired. Tomorrow I have to interview students. Well, right now I'm hungry and when I'm really hungry I get to cranky. Well two more days to my uncle death anniversary. Am I scared or what? Seriously I'm scared..

I'm just to tired to blog.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[6:04 PM]

Missing you all day long

only you even if the world breaks in half for me it's
you no matter how much I think I only want you it's the truth
(everybody know that i love you)
i love you, you, nod your head and tell me, you, "if it's you It's okay"
you baby... open your lips and answer me now.
-Love you by Seo In Gook

In a few days time, it will be your one year death anniversary. All I ever wanted to say will be said now.

Dear Uncle,

In 8 days time will be your first death anniversary. Today I was just so sick to go to school. I been sick these days. Our family has been up and down because of me. I'm the only reason that our family has been like these. Well to start well, I would just like to apologized the things that I have been putting myself into risk. I don't mean any harm. I just want to be there out there, telling the world that I'm ready to move on but the truth is i'm not ready. Maybe Akmal is true? I'm not doing any thing to move on. Í'm just depending on the medicine to work like now. I'm sick because i'm sick not because I don't want to go to school.

If there is anything I want to say to you right now is You should have stayed a little longer. I blame the doctor that didn't put in effort to save you. Oh well, he was trying his best. I just wait for you until my time comes, okay. Be there wait for me. I will be going up there soon. But not now, maybe after my parents or my grandparents.

You are doing so well up there looking out for me. But everytime I think and see the light, I would not dare to go through it. I'm not ready to face what my parents are seeing me face now. I just want to say that I just love you and would never forget you.

Lots of love,
Zarifah

P.s If you do see me crying, like the councellor always say, tears are meant for happiness.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[8:03 PM]

Missing you all day long

To say it was love was a lie
Saying that you loved me was a lie
Saying it was eternal was a lie
Left me Only with the words that she’ll come back
Where did she go (We’re falling further apart)
Where did she go
We’re falling further & further apart
I’ll love only you

-After Love by FT Island

Mirror, it been the same question I've been asking you. You are pretty but why are you so sad...I'm just so tired. I want to give up.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[7:13 PM]

Missing you all day long

When i smile without realizing it, am i passing us by
Even though pretenting to smile without knowing why…
Truthfully I want to cry
You look into my eyes
It seems our Love is ending like this
before i know it our parting is approaching
You say ”Goodbye”
Letting you go like this is still difficult to me,
please give me a little more time
I can’t live without you,
My all is in you
If i say goodbye first,
Then you will expect that i’m letting you go first

My All is in you by Super Junior

Dear Mirror,

Why do you cry everytime I see you? Don't you like me? I see bits and pieces of tears. When you are around other people, you're a fake. You can smile at all the people around you except for yourselves. Do you think this world is crazy? I do think so. Sometimes my mom tell me the person in the mirror is me. I'm not that sad, am I?

Zarifah

Today thankfully my mood was alright there wasn't any ups and downs to it. But the truth I'm suffocating. I'm suffocating with the teachers nagging at me on what to do. I am now abit lazy to update truthfully. I shall update later.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[7:03 PM]

Missing you all day long