BLOW ME AWAY

♥Monday, August 23, 2010

only you even if the world breaks in half for me it's
you no matter how much I think I only want you it's the truth
(everybody know that i love you)
i love you, you, nod your head and tell me, you, "if it's you It's okay"
you baby... open your lips and answer me now.
-Love you by Seo In Gook

In a few days time, it will be your one year death anniversary. All I ever wanted to say will be said now.

Dear Uncle,

In 8 days time will be your first death anniversary. Today I was just so sick to go to school. I been sick these days. Our family has been up and down because of me. I'm the only reason that our family has been like these. Well to start well, I would just like to apologized the things that I have been putting myself into risk. I don't mean any harm. I just want to be there out there, telling the world that I'm ready to move on but the truth is i'm not ready. Maybe Akmal is true? I'm not doing any thing to move on. Í'm just depending on the medicine to work like now. I'm sick because i'm sick not because I don't want to go to school.

If there is anything I want to say to you right now is You should have stayed a little longer. I blame the doctor that didn't put in effort to save you. Oh well, he was trying his best. I just wait for you until my time comes, okay. Be there wait for me. I will be going up there soon. But not now, maybe after my parents or my grandparents.

You are doing so well up there looking out for me. But everytime I think and see the light, I would not dare to go through it. I'm not ready to face what my parents are seeing me face now. I just want to say that I just love you and would never forget you.

Lots of love,
Zarifah

P.s If you do see me crying, like the councellor always say, tears are meant for happiness.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[8:03 PM]

Missing you all day long