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♥Thursday, July 21, 2011

Life isn't what you think it is. It's FAIR!

I started to be grateful nowadays. From my experience and now from depression. I see a brighter me. Things does not go well when my friends tries to ask me to do things to help myself. As a friend, please do not think that I'm sick. I'm actually not sick. I guess. Things have gotten better from last few months.

I'm happier. You do see a happier me, right? Please do not spoil me. I would not allow you to spoil me and affect me. I'm sorry but for once I have the right to say this. I think you are nothing to me but just a friend so don't make me sympathize you. I am like a man in a girl's body. I can be sensitive but I don't show it to you. I get upset but now I have learnt to control it and just walk away.

This "friend" I'm talking about is close to us. I guess you do know her but you do too get annoyed by her.

The contract for myself:

I, Zarifah Aliah Bte Zulkifli.

1.Promise to get well and do very well for my N levels and O levels.

2.Never get into a relationship.

3. To get really well!

4. Would never forget you all as friends. Eventhough, next two years I may study abroad.

Signed,

Zarifah.

If I failed to succeed it, I will punish severely. I promise whatever it is I will try my best no matter what. Like the man says "To the Best!"

Zarifah,FIGHTING!

LOVE,
Zarifah

[5:48 PM]

Missing you all day long

Happy Belated July Everyone!

Well, hello again. I have not updated again. Been kind of busy with work. I mean school. My greatest achievement for this two weeks:

Able to attend school without an mc
Had done a fabulous or a wonderful job in English.

Been quite proud of myself. This week's objectives are:

Able to attend another week of school without getting sick
Taking a big step and pass all my test.
Being less forgetful

For point 3. I really don't know if I could really achieve it because I'm getting really forgetful. I don't know perhaps it's because of the medication.

I want a wonderful July.

Well let's pray the same thing.

This is my other prayer that I pray everyday.

Dear Almighty Allah, even my aunts says I may not achieve it but I do believe that I could achieve of getting a scholarship and study overseas after I get well. And I do really want to get well. I love you.

Ameen.

Well got to go.

LOVE,
Zarifah

[10:48 AM]

Missing you all day long